Something I can handle

Temption is harder to avoid then i thought

So I start school my first day I was excited till they told me that I needed to two more credits to be a full on sophomore ... but that just made it even less likely I was gonna run into a certain someone .

So I guess it was good ... except for it seems like satan had worked his hardest to mess with my universe and make it the worst for me ... because as unlikely that it is ... I ended seeing him everywhere ... I had to doge bullets and hide under my hoodies and cover my face with my books ... to make sure D didn't see me .

His locker was in the hall way where three of my classes were .

It was awful .

Well right as I thought I was gonna make it a full week without him seeing me .

It's Friday and I'm walking to my third period class .

I had it studied on the times of the day I would see him so I could specifically avoid him.

Well I was really tired that day and I didn't want to have to rush to take two different stairways to go around his locker and get to my class on time . so I leaned out of the door of my second period class and looked straight at his locker .

That's it !
Yes my lucky day !
He was running late cause usually he was right at his locker ... and for once life was working out for me, D was running late !

I make a mad dash to swerve around all the students to get to my class it was a straight shot to third period computer class .

Right as I'm about to zoom past his locker he comes up the stairs right in front of me , we almost collided .

He went to turn around to see who the person was he almost ran over .
I looked down and swerved around !
Phew I dodged a bullet there....
At least I think I did , hopefully he didn't catch a glimpse of me .

I make it through the rest of my day .

I decided with it being Friday I was going to go to the library because I'm a major book worm. my first week of school and I had yet to make a trip to the library.

So I go and follow my school map to get to the library . I see doors that will lead me to the path , that will then  take me to the library as I'm about to walk out of them .. my extreme unfortunate life ... guess who comes through .

My ex ..D ....dang it .

We both pause as we make eye contact .

That familiar voice that brought me comfort and then pain said my name in such shock .

I pulled away from his eyes that I used to look at and admire .
I shake my head and walk around .

Not even saying a word .

I made my way to the library trying to decide if I was going to mention to my parents that I ran into him or not .
Was it even important .
My mom and dad did warn me that if I mess up ... They would pull me out.

My mom has asked me everyday this week if I had seen him or talked to him .

I told her no .

I thought that would be it ... he got the message . I wasn't interested in him anymore .

So why make a fuss.

He did look really good though .
His eyes looked like a richer brown .
His face look so much softer , not so hard and grumpy .
I forgot how tall he was .
But ... I'm so over him ...?

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Lord thank you for all you have done , you love me through my mistakes, even when I point the finger at you . I'm sorry for my mistakes .

Amen,
Aly