Something I can handle

It wouldnt happen again if it wasnt meant to be right ?

I spent all weekend thinking about D.
How tall he had gotten.
How he had grown out his facial hair .
How soft his face looked .
If you asked my best friend S , she would tell you that I didn't stop talking about him .

Well here comes the dreaded Monday . I get to school when my cousin meets me and tells me that D is so upset and confused .

He told him that we ran into each other but heres the kicker - HE was so hurt when i ignored him , he just wanted to talk to me .
My cousin told me to just talk to him.
I told my cousin I couldn't do it .. he hurt me to bad .. I didn't want to hear his lies ... my cousin said something I never thought I'd hear him say because we are so close he is more like a brother ... and I already have four brother you'd think I wouldn't need another but I love him he is always there .... he even apologized specifically for these words ... he told me I was acting like every other over dramatic teenage girl .... I was shocked ... but my insecurities said he was right .... so that afternoon when I came from my third period class I planned to stop by his locker ... something in me said go around but my heart it was fluttering it was telling me to go to him to finally ... to finally hold him in person the way we always talked about over the phone ... I was just a few steps away from his locker he wasn't there yet so I stood and waited .... he came up the stairs and went straight for his locker .... I sucked in a deep breathe .... and walked forward .

I tapped his shoulder .

And words finally came out of my mouth.

" Hi ."

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Lord , going and writing this is taking me and my heart back through this emotional roller coaster .... but I know that even the smallest thing in this story could help someone else

I'm doing this to spread my testimony ... the work that you have done in my life.

I thank you for this journey .

Amen ,
Aly