Don't Forget About Me

Chapter 38

I jump in the bed. You would think that I would get used to these random ass dreams but I don't. I grab my belly still feeling the bump I sigh with a little relief. I look for my phone so I can see what time it is, Judging by the fact that it's dark now it's pretty late. I find my phone and notice ten at night, damn. I notice that I have a new message. I am really not wanting to hear anymore from my father so I contemplant ignoring it for now but then just decide to look at it. When I open it my mouth goes wide.

Unknown- I hope you're ok baby. I will find you soon. I hope a special someone found you ok. Just want to say that I love you and stay strong. It will be over soon baby I promise.

Os. He finally let me know he was ok. The tears are coming again but this time happy tears. I don't respond to the message because I have a feeling that this wasn't a phone that he was going to respond with again. I take a deep breath and relax a little because he's alive and that's the little push that I needed to keep going. To come out of the darkness and believe what he said that he promised to come back to me. I get up and walk out of the room and go to the bathroom to check my face and see if there is any improvement from earlier. When I get to the door and try to open it I notice that it's locked. Sara must be in there. I walked by her room and noticed she wasn't in there so answers my question. I walk to the living room to check on Octavius. He's gone. What the fuck? I look around at nothing. He's kind of a big guy so cant be missing him. Then I think. I walk back to the bathroom and knock. “Yes.” They both say as if in sync. I chuckle a little. “Nothing, just making sure that you two are ok.” There was chucking on the other side of the door as well now. 

“Yea we are good, we will be out in a min Kels.” I shake my head and walk away so they can have their moment. I feel a little jealous because I'm missing Os so much and damn we didn't even do anything there yet. Laughing at myself I walk to the kitchen to grab something to eat because I'm starving. This kid is taking everything out of me. I started to look through the cabinets and found some pickles. That sounds good but I want something sweet too. I keep looking and find some chocolate syrup. “Perfect.” I say but as I put the two items next to each other I cant get over how odd these two are together but fuck it im pregnant that means I get weird cravings right? I sit at the table and pop open the pickles. I open the top of the syrup and put some on the pickle and take a bite. As I'm chomping down all I can think is this is fantastic. Then I do it again and again. As I take my third bite of the second pickle the two shower buddies walk in and look at me with an odd look.

 “What?” They both start to laugh and Octavius walks by me still holding his side. “Is that good Kels because I hope you know that's not a normal thing.” Sara said to me as she pointed at my chocolate covered pickle. Obviously I know it's not normal but it's the best thing I have had in a while. I shrug and take another bit and chomp a little louder so she can hear it.  “What does Os have to eat here? I'm starving.” Ocvtavius is looking around in the cabinets when he comes across a box of cereal. “Perfect” He opens the fridge and grabs the half gallon of milk. “Umm Kels, where are the bowls?” I look up at him with a mouth full and point to the corner cupboard. 

“Thanks.” I only learned that last night when I was  looking for the booze. I finish up with my snack and put everything away. “Sara do you want anything?” She looked over at Octavius at the table with his bowl and looked back at me. “I have what he's having.” I reach up and grab her a bowl and turn around to hand it to her but then I get this cramp in my stomach that is like nothing I have ever felt before. I instantly drop the bowl to the ground and it shatters. Then I'm crashing down with it and curling up into a ball because it's the only thing that I can do. “Sara oh my god what's wrong.” Sara is right by my side and I'm crying so hard because it hurts so bad. 

“I don't know what's happening.”  I look up at her as if realizing something. “It's the baby, Sara the baby.” Im crying harder now and cant make it stop. I hear someone talking and it's not Sara. I manage to get my eyes clear to see Octavius on the phone. I panic then and need to tell him not to trust anyone and not bring anyone here. “Stop him, he can't call anyone, we can't risk anyone finding us here Sara. Please stop him.” Another cramp takes me over and I scream out in pain. “Fuck Fuck Fuck” Octavius comes to my side and picks me up. He shouldn't be doing that because his wound could open up. “Stop, you're going to hurt yourself more.” I say quietly in between cries. It hurts so much and I don't know what to do. I really wish Os was here with me because I have no idea what to do. Octavius takes me over to the couch and lays me down. I see the blood going down his side from picking me up. I lay there and curl back up. 

“Should we take her to the hospital? What should we do Oct?” Sara is asking him as if he really knows what to do. “I have someone coming, someone trustworthy. The pain just keeps coming but then I hear Sara skreek. “Kels oh my god.” Then she runs towards the hallway.  What the hell was that about? When she comes back she has  towels and I'm confused until she comes in front of me and puts them under me. “No NO NO.” I look down there is blood. Not just a little blood, a lot of blood. “This can't be happening.” I cry harder again and Sara just holds me when another pain rushes through me.” Thirty more minutes go by, at least I think it's that long who knows. Then I hear the sounds of tires on Gravel. Everything started to calm down in a weird way and I feel nothing, emptiness because I know what's happening I just don't want to say it to myself. All of a sudden the door pushes open and I look and there in front of me is Os, he's here. He comes right up in front of me and I see the emotion inside his eyes. He knows too what's happening. 

“Osvaldo I need to take a look at her please.” Os moves up towards my head and lets the lady come forward. She looks to be in her late forties but has that silver gray hair thing going for her. She looks at me then glances down to the blood soaked towels and back up to me. “How far along are you sweety?” I shake my head un able to speak full sentences. “Well it unfortunately looks like you're having a miscarrage. This is something that is very common but I need you to relax so I can check you to see how far you are.” I can't stop the tears because the baby is gone, she's gone. That's what I dreamt about: a baby girl that I will never be able to hold is gone. I grab Os’s shirt and pull him in. 

“Shh baby it's ok we will get through this but you need to let Dr. Leslie, look at you ok. We need to make sure that you are alright.” He says it so calmly that it makes me relax just enough to move so she can start to check me. Octavius and Sara had left the room to give us privacy. I felt the doctors fingers go inside me and it hurts so bad. Then she takes out this little montor thing that she rubs on my stomach to listen for something. Nothing. 

“I have to do one more thing but you're not going to like it very much. It will be very uncontrollable.” I nod because I'm still trying to collect myself. She takes out this laptop and puts it next to her and grabs this stick looking thing and goes towards my entrance and in she goes. I grab Os because this is the worst pain that I have ever felt. I notice she's looking at her computer as she moves it around in me and I'm praying this will end soon. Os is rubbing my head trying his best to keep me calm and it's working for now. When she pulls the stick thing out and goes to clean it off and looks at her computer again she turns to me. Kelsey, you had a miscarrage. You look to only be between four to six weeks along so we don't need to go to the hospital but I will want to check on you over the next few days. You need to make sure  that you take it easy and if you need anything for the pain take one of these.” She hands me a pill bottle. I give her a half smile and take the bottle. I'm not taking those. 

“Thank you.” I saw quietly but loud enough so she could hear me. She gathers her things together and goes towards the door. Os gets up and walks with her. “Thank you for coming on such short notice.” She smiles and takes one last look at me. “Be sure to watch her and make sure she takes it easy, I will be back tomorrow to check on her. He nods and then she's gone. I sit on the couch and pull my legs to my chest still not believing what happened. Os comes back to me and grabs me in his arms. “Let's go take a bath.” He says and I let him pick me up in his arms. I don't know how I can get through this but with us here now I'm hoping that there is some hope.