I don't understand, it was perfect until it wasn't. I was clueless to your games, i thought you actually loved me like you said you did. I noticed you drifting away, until eventually it piled up and we both knew it needed to end. you kept getting mad at every single thing i did, and you would get mad at me if i wasn't with you sexually (as if it were the only reason i was there). I should've realized then & there that you were using me. It wasn't until we both fucked other people and pretended like we were okay that the truth came out. I wouldn't have ever guessed that you would cheat on me. It still hurts to think about, because now i know that i'm just some other girl. you said you didn't want a relationship, and gave millions of other excuses to go along with that. why are you getting into another relationship then? the thought of you with somebody else is constantly on my mind, and it hurts. I don't know why i still love you after all you've done to hurt me. It feels like everything you're doing is targeted specifically to cause me pain. maybe i'm just full of myself but maybe i'm not since you'll consciously do things to hurt me. you would invite me over and try to fuck me even after I said no a million times. you even said you "want to get back together" a bunch of times just to persuade me. it was all manipulation. as soon as you found somebody else, you stopped texting me. I wonder if you even care anymore. i blocked you on everything because it all hurts too much to see. i don't know what else to do, you're constantly on my mind like an addiction. i guess the sickness i feel from it is like withdrawals. i don't know why i look at my phone constantly hoping it'll be you. its a shame that its come to this since we know each other so well, but i cant trust anything from you anymore. you've lied to me consistently and manipulated me to suit your needs. its sick, but i already knew you were a fucked up person from the beginning (thats why we clicked). you were the person who outright treated me the best, even my mom loved you, but behind the scenes you are a different guy. I hope you get what you deserve soon.
