I've felt this before.
it's the rapid beating of the heart; the fluttering felt in my head while listening to the voice of an angel.
this time is different though.
this time it's less of a sad heartbreak, and more of a hope for the best with you.
I'm not sure if you want that though.
you can get somebody so much better than me, and i know that you know it.
you're a rising sun while I'm the dark moonless night.
you have my heart in the palms of your hands, but why would you want it?
I'm so beaten down and broken, it wouldn't make sense for you to want me.
but nonetheless, I'm wildly attracted to you.
I would give so much to have you in my life.
when did this happen?
when did I become so attached to you?
I should stop.
I'm too clingy to you when you probably don't want it.
I'm driving you away, but I can't seem to stop.
I know I'll regret it when the time comes.
but for right now, all I can seem to do is talk to you.
I like feeling the butterflies in my stomach when I do.
it makes me forget the pain that I've endured.
it makes me forget that anyone can hurt me.
you just make me giggly and smiley, much like a toddler.
I love feeling that way, and that's why I can't seem to get enough of you.
I'm sure that it annoys you at least a little bit, because well, I'm always looking to talk.
I just miss you & the days spent.
it's just been so long, you know?
I'm reminiscing, always coming back to the same conclusion.
nobody compares to you.
