8th Period

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I laid down on his bed as he gave the blunt to me. I took a couple hits and passed it back. For a while we sat in silence.

"What are you doing after graduation?" He asked
"I've always wanted to be a teacher, i'm not sure though. What about you." I said taking the blunt from him.
"I'm going to the police academy."
"So you're going to be a police officer and you're sitting here doing drugs." I said laughing uncontrollably
"Ha ha very funny." He said sarcastically beginning to laugh with me.

My laughter subsided and Ethan laid next to me. We locked eyes and he brushed my hair to the side. He pushed his lips to mine and kissed me. I pulled back immediately. I got off of the bed and walked out of the room.

Luna saw me from across the room as I was making my way down the wooden steps.

Her eyes widened and she smiled.

"Having fun with Ethan I assume?" She said
"Ew definitely not, we just smoked."
"Interesting." She replied

She led me into the kitchen where I found Taylor sitting on a stool. Luna poured me a drink and talked to her.

After about two hours people started leaving. Luna and I decided to head out as well. I said bye to Ethan in hopes of clearing the air between us. Ethan was a good friend, I had a crush on him in middle school but nothing ever came out of it. Luna drove us home and got in the shower. I wasn't very tired so I went out to the backyard. I laid down on the semi-wet grass and looked out to the stars.

Of course, Ryan crossed my mind. I picked up my phone and tried to call him.

No answer.

I was worried and heartbroken. The ring Ryan gave me for my birthday still on my finger. I twisted it back and forth and tears filled my eyes.

- One week After Graduation -

Summer had just begun and so many plans had been made already.

Luna started seeing a therapist and was soon moving out in a few weeks. Her and Taylor were moving to New York. They didn't have any plans for after. All they knew was that they were getting the fuck out of Arizona.

Carson had so many bitches in the span of three weeks, everyone lost count. Carson wasn't planning on doing anything special since graduating. He started working full time at an auto shop in town.

Hazel was going to start college close to our town. She wanted to be a nurse. While Dennis was set on pursuing a job in the agriculture field.

I however, was lost.

I thought about Ryan every single day. Calling him over and over just in case he unblocked me and picked up. I was going crazy. This was my first real breakup with my first love.

It was Saturday and Carson called asking to come over. I agreed and he arrived shortly.

I opened the door for him with a smile.

"Hey." He said walking in and sitting on the couch.
"What's up?" I asked
"Did you sleep with Ethan?" He asked
I was taken aback "Fuck no." I replied, "Why would you say that."
"Luna said something about it after that party, I can't get it out of my head and I needed to ask.
"Well I didn't, I don't see how it's any of your concern."

He stood up without speaking and crossed the room. As he stood inches away from me he began to talk.
"I'm in love with you Jasmine Marie." He said quietly pushing his lips to mine seconds after.

He picked me up and placed me on the sofa. After a few minutes of passionate kisses he took my clothes off and slipped into me.

Afterwards, I got dressed and went to my room. Carson followed behind me and laid in my bed.

"Do you love me back?" He asked
I sat on the bed contemplating my answer. I played with his hair and responded after a few minutes.
"No - I don't. I don't mean to make you feel bad. You and Luna have been dating for as long as I've known her."
"But we're not together." He replied raising his voice
"Well obviously I know that, but it's still rude and I am still in love with Ryan. This is just for fun and I would like to keep it that way."
"You got it. Whatever you want." He said obviously upset. However, he didn't leave. He let me lay with him and we took a nap.

We woke up around five o'clock. I checked for Luna in her room but she was gone. I assumed she was staying with Taylor again.

I went to the kitchen and received a call from my mom.

"Hey baby what are you doing?" She asked.
"About to cook dinner, when are you coming home?" I asked. Both of my parents travelled for work. This week they were in New Mexico.
"I just wanted to call and tell you that we will be home Wednesday. Clean up the house for us please."

I soon ended the call and searched for something to cook. I heard my bedroom door open from down the hall and Carson came up behind me. He wrapped his hands on my waist and kissed my neck. I felt bad for him. I didn't feel anything towards him. I had sexual feelings towards him but nothing else.

"Are you hungry?" He asked
"Starving, nothing looks good." I replied
"I'll go pick something up, do you want to go or stay here?"
"I'll stay here, get me nuggies."
"I know I know." He said grabbing his keys. He pulled me in for a kiss and walked out.

I got a quick shower while I waited for him. Afterwards, I cleaned up and went to my bedroom.
I grabbed my blanket revealing Carson's phone. I picked it up and my jaw dropped when I seen a message notification.

It was from Ryan.