8th Period

14

We got home around 2 AM and we all went straight to bed, all of us stumbling around from drinking a little too much. I woke up that afternoon at 3 PM with a killer headache. I laid in the bad, wrapped up in the soft covers. I grabbed my phone that was laying next to me and texted Ryan for a few minutes then I turned on the tv and surfed through the channels. I settled on The Property Brothers and watched for another hour until Carson knocked on the door.

"Come in." I said loudly, he entered wearing basketball shorts and a white tank top.
"I made breakfast a few hours ago, it's in the microwave if you want it." He said with a gentle smile.
"Okay, thanks." I said softly, I watched as he closed the door.

I was hungry but I didn't feel like getting out of bed, I had that feeling of guilt again. After another hour I struggled out of bed and went into the bathroom and looked at myself, my mascara smeared and my breath smelled horribly like alcohol. I brushed my teeth and got in the shower. I washed away the memories of yesterday, the warm water ran down my back smoothly like a long river. Before my shower ended I turned the water cold a habit I've developed over the past few weeks. The icy cold water trickled down my skin making me flinch but I liked the frigid feeling. I turned the knob to the side and stepped out of the shower, the air conditioning hitting me making my back arch. I fired myself off and got dressed in casual attire. I put on a yellow shirt and dark blue jeans, I pulled my hair up into a slightly messy bun and left my messy room. On the couch sat Luna who was watching tv. Behind her in the kitchen was Carson sitting at the table on his phone. I went to the kitchen and warmed up the breakfast. Carson made waffles, bacon, and sausage. I sat down next to him and started to eat the food. It was delicious.

"Where's Dennis and Hazel?" I asked looking over to Carson."
"Mm I don't know probably downstairs having sex on the pool table." He said with a straight face.
"Ew gross I'm trying to eat here."
"What it's not like you haven't done it." He said looking up at me raising one eyebrow. I didn't say anything.

I'm a virgin and none of my friends know. I dated a guy freshman year and I guess they all assumed we had sex, but we didn't. Part of me was embarrassed to tell them because they are all sexually active and I didn't want to look weird I guess? Sex is a scary thing and I've just never been ready for it really. I knew I wanted Ryan to me my first, I think.

When I finished my food it was almost dinner time. Hazel appeared from the lower floor sweaty and red.

"Pool table." Carson whispered to me.
"I heard that." Hazel said coming closer to the table. "We are all going out to eat get ready." She said flipping her hair and making her way to her room, Dennis following her.
"Are you coming?" Carson asked standing up.
"Probably not since I just finished eating, I'll probably watch tv or something." That was a lie.
"Okay cool, babe come get changed." He yelled to Luna.

I walked back to my bedroom and grabbed my phone to text Ryan.

Me - everyone is going to dinner, now is the time to come if you want.
Ryan - Okay am I just staying tonight?
Me - it's up to you if you want to stay longer.
Ryan - Okay I'll let you know when I'm there :)

I smiled and started to clean up my room. I picked up the trash and put my dirty clothes in the laundry basket. I made the bed and cleaned up the rest of the house. If he did leave tomorrow I knew they would all leave to get party supplies so, he could leave then. I didn't really want him to leave but I knew me might have too. I love him.