8th Period

25

After the shower I got dressed in black sweatpants and a grey shirt. I brushed my hair and put on a little mascara. I walked out of the room and peeled into Luna's; she was asleep and Taylor was gone. I shut the door and walked to the living room where Hazel was rolling a blunt.

"Happy birthday bitch." She said handing me the blunt and a lighter.
"It's 4:20 somewhere." I said lighting it and bringing it to my lips.
"Where's Dennis?" I asked passing the weed back to her.
"On the back porch, I think he's on the phone with Ryan." My heart sank.
"Do you know what happened last night?" I asked her.
"Uh no?" She said confused, I explained why he left and a tear ran down my cheek.
"Awe babe I'm sorry, I'm sure you guys will make up it was just a little disagreement."
"Yeah I guess so." I said taking the blunt and taking multiple hits before giving it back.

I was starting to feel the high and laid back on the couch.

I miss him.

I went out to the back porch and Dennis looked me up and down.

"He really loves you girl."
"Then why did he act like that last night?"
"He was just worried about you, that's all. I think you need to talk to him."
My thoughts went straight to Carson. What I did was wrong. I shouldn't have. I just wished I could go back. That wasn't how my first time was supposed to be.
I didn't respond to Dennis I just went back in the house. I grabbed my keys from the counter and I left without saying a word to anyone.
I pulled out of the driveway and started driving to Ryan's house. 

When I arrived about a half an hour later I stayed in the car for a few minutes before getting out and walking up the steps to his porch. I knocked on the door and he answered within a few minutes.

He wasn't wearing a shirt and had on grey sweatpants. I just looked at him. I didn't have words to say. He opened his arms and pulled me in. I let out a sigh of relief before kissing him gently. I pulled away and went into his house, I sat on the couch and motioned for him to come sit.

"We need to talk" we both said simultaneously.
"I have never felt anything like this with anyone but you Jasmine. You mean so much to me. You make me so happy. But I want you to be safe and you are smart enough to not do that kind of thing."
"Okay it was only one time. I get it but you didn't have to say what you did last night. You broke my heart."
"I know and I'm so sorry, I was just really upset. I don't want you going down the wrong path. One use of a drug can lead to a lifetime of addiction and I don't want that for you."
"I know I'm sorry." I said with tears starting to form in my eyes.
We didn't speak after that we just held each other for a little while.

We were interrupted by me getting a call from Hazel. I answered.

"Where are you?" She asked frantically.
"Ryan's why?"
"Come back, Luna and Carson are fighting and I'm about to punch both of them."
"Okay I'll be there soon."

"What's going on?" Ryan asked
"Well after you left Carson walked in Luna's room and she was fucking the girl that brought molly."
"Oh shit. Is Carson okay?"
Everything that happened last night and this morning flashed in my head.
"No he's really upset about it and I guess they are fighting right now." I said getting up and walking to the door.

We left the and we got in my car. I pulled out of the driveway and started driving to my house. Ryan reached for my hand and held it.

"So is Luna like, gay?"
"I mean maybe, she's never mentioned it before so I don't know. But like she probably slept with Taylor for a reason."
"I feel bad for Carson but he probably sleeps with other girls too." My heart sank and I got a feeling of guilt. The right thing would be to tell him but not now. Or ever.

We pulled in the driveway and you could hear the screaming from outside clear as day. We walked in and Hazel was sitting on the couch rubbing her forehead, Dennis was smoking a cigarette at the kitchen counter and looked up at us. He has a simple smile then pointed in the direction of the hallway. I walked down and went to Luna's room.

"Can you guys shut the fuck up?" I asked yelling over them.
"She fucking wasted my time." Carson yelled looking stressed. I looked to Luna who has a suitcase on her bed and was packing.
"Where do you think you're going?" I asked.
"Frankly Jasmine, that's none of your business so why don't you, your overaged boyfriend, and the rest of you assholes I used to be friends with leave me the fuck alone."
"I think you need to get the fuck out of my house." I said my blood boiling.
"Gladly." She said with a smile pushing me out of the way and leaving the house. Taylor picked her up in a small black car and flipped us off as we watched from the glass door.

Carson placed his hand on my shoulder before turning me giving me a hug.
"I don't know what to do Jaz." He whispered into my ear.
"Move on." I said. He sighed loudly before pulling away and plopping himself on the couch.

A few hours passed and we decided to order pizza. Dennis and Ryan were outside starting a fire, Hazel was out there too, she was gathering sticks for them. I was laying on my bed when Carson came in my room. Without saying anything he shut and locked the door.

"What's up?" I asked sitting up. He sat on the bed and climbed on top of me, he started kissing my neck.
"What are you doing." I asked pushing him away.
"I don't even know." He said getting up and leaving the room.

I shook my head and got on a hoodie before going outside.
I sat out some chairs for us around the pit and took a seat next to Ryan. We made hot dogs and s'mores. No one said anything about Luna, we just talked and joked around. It was around midnight when Carson went inside and grabbed us beers. We sipped on them still enjoying the fire. My mom called during and wished me a happy birthday, she said she would make up not being here when she gets back.

"Do you wanna go inside?" Ryan whispered almost seductively.
"Sure." I said getting up and following him in the house.

As soon as we got in the house Ryan pushed me up against the kitchen wall and kissed me passionately. With our lips still locked we stumbled through the hallway and into my bedroom. I locked the door and hurriedly took off my hoodie, he wrapped his arms around me unhooking my bra. I pulled his shirt up and over him, then pulled on the strings of his joggers. I slowly kissed his neck and pressed him up against the door, I continued kissing until I got where I wanted. I pulled his joggers down along with his boxers. I teased him some then put him in my mouth, I slowly rubbed myself while I did this. A few minutes passed and I stood up, taking him in my hand and slowly rubbing up and down and gave him hickeyes everywhere I could. His fingers traced my sweatpants and then he slipped his hand in, he pushed my underwear to the side and rubbed me slowly. After a few minutes I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to the bed and took my joggers off then my underwear and threw them over to him. He grinned and walked over, he pushed my legs open and kissed my thighs, he rubbed his tongue on me and I felt my breath getting heavier. I managed to get out a few words in between moans which were, "fuck me". He stoped what he was doing and looked up. "Are you sure?" He asked and I nodded. He then sat up and rubbed his tip over me. I clenched the bedding as he entered me and let out a loud moan. He covered my mouth as he went faster and faster. He hovered over me and gave me sloppy kisses all over my chest. Eventually I finished and before he did I took him in my mouth. When he was done we both leaned back and I let out a deep breath.

"That was-" I started to say
"Amazing." He said grabbing the sheet and pulling it over us.
"Yeah that." I said kissing him softly.