In A Relationship With TXT Beomgyu

7 | Dreams And You

It was a dream.

I knew it because I was sitting in the audience instead of being on the stage. I watched as the lights dimmed and the screen showed each member's audition tapes. The debute showcase. I was seeing it with the reporters. The host tapped the mic and smiled, "And, Now I'm going to introduce the new YG Entertainment girls group here, Midnight Blues!" He applaud.

Since I was the leader, I had to walk out first. My steps were measured, all eyes on me. Going to the far corner looked like a difficult task that moment, but I did it. Then my eyes moved to my group members who lined up after me. Teal almost stumbled on her steps but straightened up immediately after.

"3. 2. 1. Hello, we're the Midnight Blues." I introduced as we bowed to the reporters. My heart was pounding, hands shaking and eyes wide open. I was on edge. I was a leader though. That meant I needed to be a strength in the group, not a nervous wreck. I smiled when the host asked us to introduce ourselves one by one.

"Hello, I'm Midnight Blues Violet. This is such a happy day of my life. I'm grateful for everyone who waited for our debute. We all have worked hard to get a chance to stand here on this stage, and we will make sure to show our dedication and different sides of the group to you guys in the future. Please give us a lot of support."

Watching this through the audience felt odd. I couldn't see myself trembling, nor could hear my pounding heart. Even my voice didn't shake as much as I had imagined. I didn't notice Ruby's shortening of breath. Nor I noticed how Lavender was having a panic attack. Teal almost looked perfect. I didn't see her emotional turmoil, nor I saw Olive's struggle to keep herself on her feet after not eating a meal in three days. It looked perfect from the outside view. Just plain confidence.

We were full of hope and happiness. It was a dream come true. After years of practicing day and night, here we were on the stage. Debuting under YG. Already having a good fan following prior to debute. The girls were still warming up to me for it had only been a few months since I was introduced to them. But, I could feel their giddiness, just like they could feel mine.

"Ae-Cha. Ae-Cha?" I felt a light tap on my shoulder. My eyes fluttered and a blurry image entered my brain. What? I blinked to focus. "Why are you crying?" It was a male voice. Not uncle. He didn't have this deep voice. "You okay?"

Beomgyu. I blinked again to see if he might disappear. He didn't. My mouth opened and closed like a fish. Something wasn't right here. What was I doing here on the couch? Why wasn't I at dorms? I jogged my mind to know what happened last night but it came like a blank canvas. Nothing. Maybe I should sit up first and then talk to him.

I lifted my hand to take a support when I realized something else. I was holding him. His hand, I mean. Blood rushed to my cheeks. It wasn't just a light hold, I was gripping his hand tight. Shit. I let go off him and sat up at once. Damn, my head hurt. What the hell did I do last night? And did my senior actually saw me embarrassing myself?

"Here." He gestured towards my eyes, handed me a handkerchief. I dabbed my cheeks. Could the earth really open up to swallow me whole? "Do you have a schedule today?" he asked.

I shook my head. "No. We had our last comeback stage yesterday. Today I'm free," I mumbled, fumbling with my hands. "Sunbae, what... What are you doing here? Did you come just now or?"

Beomgyu smiled. "Your aunt called me last night to talk to you. I'm your friend for her, you know."

Groaning, I hid my face in the cushion. He chuckled and I peeked. "I cried in front of you, didn't I?"

"You did." He nodded. "Does it bother you? I mean, crying generally. Does it bother you?"

"Yes. I don't like to embarrass myself. It's like a private ceremony for me in which only I'm invited to see my misery," I told him. "It's a bad thing I know. I just..."