keshia story

who do I want

I want to be married happy and in love. But to who cash told me that he loved me after I slipped and feel for a moment of attention. I had told cash to stay away for a minute while I clear my mind . Sad thing is I have no remorse for it it felt so fuckin good ,but I'm no where close to being married to Chris we have two years till our wedding and forever to raise our beautiful babies. It hit me like a rocket blast. I was never going to be able to keep up with him. Mentally and physically he would always be out of my league.

Chris started staying home more and rubbing my feet. I'm getting paranoid about everything .I think he knows what I did and I guess he doesn't care ,but I can't be sure. He started saying how trust is everything . My guilty mind is getting to me cause now I think he cheated and yes sorry.

As I laid on my California king bed I realized he was less than a millimeter away. "Oww , my stomach !" I felt a sharp pain in my side. He picked me up and took me to the car. He ran back in to get my bag and shoes. My water had broke in the back seat as I waited for him to come back . I started crying out in fear and pain. He gets in and pulls out the apartment. He took the HOV lane. And we went to saint Luke hospital. They took me into the delivery room and prepped me. Meds they gave made me sleepy and numb as they proped my legs up they checked how dilated I was. Then they said push I pushed as hard as I could then they told me to hold on Chris face was amazed and he said that I was an warrior and that the head was out and the doctor said to push harder I pushed and pushed and it's the boy. I started sobbing and I they said he's beautiful come on and let's get the girl out. and I had said no and they began to laugh at me answer and again I pushed hard and they said she was a little bit bigger and that I was going to feel a cold chill from the tongues and when said to push and she's out. Beautiful beautiful little girl. I cried worse than they did as Chris cut the cords I laid there and started to drift off in a slight node and I was out .