SLIPPING (B.E.)

{eight}

last update for a while. sorry guys, i'll update as soon as i can if i get access to wattpad again.

i stayed in bed for a long time after i woke up.

i wasn't little anymore, i was just scared of facing reality.

i didn't want to get up and have to talk to billie about it. she knew i was awake, but she let me stay in bed because she was worried about the amount of sleep i'd gotten last night. but i knew that once i did get up there would be no avoiding it.

and i guess that should reassure me, at least in one sense. billie was a good caregiver. she only put me in these uncomfortable positions because she knows it'll help in the long run. so i should be grateful for that.

even thinking about it that way didn't help much, though. i was still incredibly embarrassed that i'd wet the bed last night and she'd had to clean it up. she hadn't seemed bothered by it, but i wasn't too observant when i was little. probably i should have warned her earlier, i knew it was bound to happen some time.

with a heavy sigh, i rolled onto my side and kicked the blankets off of me. i sat up on the edge of the bed, blushing a little when i realized i was still only in a pair of underwear and billies shirt.

i took wolfie with me too. not because i was feeling little, i just wanted something to hold on to. especially for the awkward conversation that was coming. if i didn't have something in my hands to fiddle with i would be panicking mentally throughout.

i made sure the shirt fell to its full length to the middle of my thighs before i went to go find billie. as i'd expected, she was on the couch in the living room with a cup of something on her phone.

she looked up and smiled at me, patting the spot next to her for me to come sit.

i stumbled onto the couch, looking up with a dust of red on my cheeks. billie giggled and set her phone down.

"you look so adorable in my shirt," she gushed, eyes glancing over me.

my blush deepened and i adjusted the way i was sitting to hide my face.

billie smiled fondly at me, then sighed. "can we talk about last night?"

knew it. "um, okay. what'd you wanna know?"

"does that happen often?" she kept her tone gentle and open. i guessed she was trying to make this as easy as she could for me.

"what? the nightmares or having an accident?"

she shrugged. "both."

i sighed. "i dunno, i don't get nightmare very often. usually they don't bother me that much, though. i don't have accidents that often either. its only ever happened if i age regress before sleeping, though."

she nods, looking thoughtfully at the other end of the room. i hoped this coversation was over, but i had a feeling she was just deciding what to ask next.

while she was thinking, i snuggled in next to her, sighing with contentment when she rested an arm around me, rubbing my side softly.

"you wanna go out today?" she asked suddenly. i looked up at her through my lashes in confusion.

"um, what d'you mean?"

she giggled. "i dunno, like to the mall or something. i wanna take you shopping, your wardrobe is in dire need of an update."

i pouted. "my wardrobe is fine. you tell me i look cute everyday, so there's obviously nothing wrong with it."

billie shrugged. i could see a bit of red on her cheeks. "i know baby, but you wear the same type of thing everyday. i wanna see if we can find some more clothes you like."

i thought about that for a moment, then nodded. "'kay. when would we go?"

"hmm, after breakfast? but first, i wanna talk to you about just oneee more lil thing," she sounded a bit nervous now, i was confused and worried again.

"okayyy, what about?" i asked hesitantly.

"i just want to know your feelings about this, alright? we don't have to do anything, i just wanna know if it's something you're interested in, okay?" oh boy. reassuring before even getting to the point, this must be serious.

"um, okay."

she took a deep breath. "you said you only have accidents if you go to sleep while regressed, right?"

so that's where this is going. "yeah, only sometimes even then, though."

she bit her lip. "well, i was just wondering if maybe you'd wanna try diapers, or something. i don't mind cleaning up after you, of course, i just want to know if that would make you more comfortable. its completely fine if not, i just-"

i cut her off with a finger to her lips. she stared at me with wide eyes. i blushed and sat back on my heels.

"sorry, but you were kinda spiraling there," i muttered, embarrassed.

"um, i'm... not entirely sure how i feel about diapers," i almost cringed saying the word. "i have thought about them before, but i was too scared to- by myself... um, you know. but i am willing to try."

i glanced up at billie to see how she was taking this. her expression hadn't changed. "only if i have to go to bed when i'm regressed, though," i clarified when she was still silent.

she nodded, seeming eager now. "of course. we can pick some up later, on our way home," she picked up on my anxiety then, and lifted her hand to hold my cheek. "that doesn't mean we have to try right away, though. only when you want to, babygirl," she reassured.

i nodded and slid off the couch. "i'm gonna go change now."

***

billie held my hand as she sifted through the racks of shirts. she gasped and pulled one out. it was beige and oversized, with a picture of a wolf on a trail on it.

"okay, you need this. you have literally no wolf shirts or anything... c'mon, let's find something to go with it," she dragged me around the store, occasionally snatching something off a shelf or a rack and then shoving me into a fitting room with it.

i found out that i liked doing a little fashion show for billie. she was always clear on whether she liked something on me or not, which honestly helped more than if she'd just shrugged and said "its good" or "thats nice". but when she did like something, she'd praise me constantly, even though i'd done nothing to help pick it out or anything. when she didn't like it, she just made a face and turned me back into the room. i liked this purely because it made both of us laugh.

although i was a bit nervous. because billie had said we had to go home after this store, and i knew that also meant we were stopping for diapers.

i wasn't as worried about trying them as i'd thought i might be. i trusted billie. i just didn't like going into a store to get them. i wish we could've just ordered them online.

"aww, that's so cute on you! gimme a lil spin," billie ordered, twirling her finger. i complied, and when i was facing her again she was still smiling.

"yeah, we're getting that," she glanced at her watch. "we'd better get going now, babygirl. go change, and then we'll pay."

once i was back in my own clothes she paid for the stuff while i held the rest of the things we'd found.

billie helped carry everything to the car. she gave me the aux, i played "prey" by the neighbourhood cuz it was my favourite song.

before long, though, we'd made it the store. she smiled at me as she got out of the car and came around to my side to open my door.

i held her hand and sort of hid behind her the whole time. she asked me if i had a certain kind in mind, but i knew nothing so i just shrugged.

the lady at the till looked at me a bit weirdly. i whimpered and held billie's hand tighter.

but it was over soon. and now i only had to worry about using them.

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jfc this was hard to write anyways enjoy sorry for the rushed ending.