Cat Café~ Pakunoda

Blender Blades

Chapter 41

Wowww it's been so long heh awkward..
This chapter is picking back up from when y/n fell asleep on Pakunoda's lap on the bedroom floor

*this chapter briefly mentions suicide but is not graphic*
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Pakunoda took a deep breath and tried to stretch under you.

"Oh you're awake?" You quickly stood up and extended your arm to help her up. She looked at you for a moment before grabbing your hand and pulling you back down.

"How are you feeling?" She asked hugging you.

"I'm okay um.. sorry about last night.."

"Don't apologize. Pushing your trauma to the back of your head is damaging. You have face it head on, accept it as a part of yourself or it will eat you alive.. You have to come to terms with what you did and why you did it."

"I just dropped a bomb like that and wouldn't tell you anything about it I'm sorry."

"This isn't about me don't worry."

"It is, it's about both of us. I wanted us to be honest with each other but I couldn't bring myself to tell you anything."

"It's okay I already know-" She paused as if she regretted speaking.

"What?"

"It's nothing don't worry." She looked like she was deep in thought.

"I'm going to tell you everything I just need to come to terms with it and be able to say it all out loud." Thinking about it was already so difficult but actually bringing yourself to say the words out loud and relive the moment was too much.

"Don't rush yourself.. y/n there's a lot of things we need to talk about but we should go somewhere else."

"What do you mean?"

"The trip I was talking about, let's go now."

"Now as in right now?"

"Well let me make sure Mel can care for the cats and get everything ready, then we go."

"Are we running away?" You questioned.

"For a little bit. If you think about it a lot of people go on vacations and isn't going on a trip the same as running away for a period of time."

"I guess your right.."

You stood up and extended your arm to Pakunoda to help her up.

"I think I just need to lay down today." You stumbled over to the bed. Pakunoda followed and got under the covers with you. You closed your eyes wishing to fall back asleep soon, when you were awake all you could think about was the fact that you killed your ex boyfriend Douglas.

Pakunoda watched you sleep, taking note of your breathing pattern and the gentle expression on your face.

Tears started falling onto the pillow as she tried not to breathe too heavily.

"You're not blasphemous y/n, you're perfect." She interlocked her fingers with yours. "You're so fucking special to me." She whispered.

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Pakunoda was still sleeping when you woke up, her hand holding yours weakly. Even deep in slumber she could make you feel like everything was going to be okay.

"Thank you." You closed your eyes to go back to sleep, resting your head on her chest.

"I'm not sure what I did but you're welcome."