Not Over You ~ Quinton Griggs

CHAPTER 48

I haven't got barely any sleep
I hate it so much
Don't get me wrong I love Mason and everything
But at night he wakes up every single hour sometimes Quinton will help and feed him with a bottle but It barely fills him up
He's up and starving again in a hour
His sleep schedule sucks so mine sucks too
Lucky for me my mom is the best and helps a lot honestly but only during the day
I mean it is my kid I should do it but her help is so good and she's taught us all kinda things although there left last week unfortunately
But I think me and quinton can handle it I mean Nessa helps a bit anytime I need a nap she'll bottle feed him or play with him
And it's sweet also charli comes over atleast like 2 times a week to play with him
We're supposed to be going to North Carolina to meet his parents and spend Christmas there I'm very very very nervous
They have given him shit for getting pregnant I just don't know if there gonna love mason or maybe hate him if there gonna hate me hopefully they like me ofocurse I want them to like me there my baby daddy's parents well my boyfriends parents well my baby daddy and boyfriend s parents
Anyways
But yeah I'm actually really nervous like what if they don't like Mason what if they take one look at me and make quinton dump me and take him from me and take quinton from Mason I couldn't live I'd probably actually kill myself
I know I freak out just at the possible thought of Quinton leaving me but him not being in his own sons life would hurt so much more
Ugh idk I can't think about it
Anyways I'm packing up my clothes right now
And Quinton's playing with Mason on the bed blowing bubbles in his stomach and making him kick his legs and arms out and smile
He has the cutest smile
The little no teeth and big old tongue it just ugh
He has so much hair it's wild
I've never loved something so much
Not even q I love him but god this baby boy is like my soulmate
I love my baby so much
Okay okay I'm packing up alllll my stuff 8 outfits because it's kinda easy for me to lay out outfits and stuff
I had all my stuff
Quinton: b look
I looked up at him holding Mason up on his feet like on q's feet like a airplane
Me: awee
Mason spit some babbles out
He unfortunately can't talk yet I wish he could I feel like he'd have a lot to say
There so cute
I knew he'd be a wonderful dad and he is it's beautiful he cares so much about his kid and I love it I can't wait we're already planning to have another kid next year
We'll make one and have it the year after yk
And stuff
I finished up packing and grabbed Quinton's clothes he had laid out and put them in my suitcase since we're using his for the baby and mines way bigger
I zipped it up with all our stuff
And set it on the floor
Me:Um q
Quinton: hm
Me: where's he gonna sleep there
Quinton; uhhh
He laughed a little
Quinton; we  did not think about that
Me: no we didn't
Quinton: he can just sleep with us
Me: I move so much I'd smother him
Quinton; well just make him sleep on my side
Me: that's not fair I won't get cuddles or anything and I wouldn't be able to get him when he's hungry
Quinton: he can sleep in the middle then and I'll protect him from smothering
Me: fine
I went to his nursery and packed a million diapers like a billion million he poops a lot
I packed a whole thing of wipes
Which I mean we can buy more if we need
I packed 4 pacifiers god forbid I can clean them and if he needs another I'll buy it
I packed 4 bottles also cause he really drinks me yk not really a bottle but I packed a container of formula incase and also 5 little frozen bags of breast milk  I had got this little Travel freezer bag to keep it all frozen
I packed my pumped to be safe I mean he'll probably end up eating formula all week
But yeah
I packed him a bunch of cute out fits for Christmas and stuff
Such cute clothes
I packed him some swaddling blankets and burping blankets and extra socks and shoes and little baby hats and stuff
I packed his owlet sock
And a bunch of other things
The door opened and shut of quinton coming in
Quinton; someone missed you and it wasn't me this time
Me: this time
I laughed
As he handed me the baby
Me: is he hungry
Quinton; nope just fed him he just wants hit mother
He smacked my butt
I gave him big face kisses and held him close while I finished packing
Me; look at these clothes I got for Him
Quinton: awe he is snow cute
He said referring to what the shirt says
Me: true
I lightly pinched the tip of his nose
Me: I gotta shower before we leave
Quinton; me too
Me: why don't you go shower now so you can take him while I shower
Quinton: mhm
He kissed my cheek
He left the room to shower
And soon texted me he was done and by then I was done packing so I carried the bag and Mason to our room
He was laid on the bed in his boxers
Quinton:cmereee
He took mason laying him on his chest
There so adorable together ugh
Me: I'll be fast
Quinton: no take your time
Awh
I hopped in the shower shaving my legs and all it's been a little while
It's really hard to shave when he just cries and cries and cries when he wants me
It was a nice long shower
And I heard the weirdest things
Quinton: ew
Quinton: ew Mason what the fuck
What was going on
I shut off the water and got out
I wrapped up in a towel
And went to them
Me: what happened
Quinton: he shit himself
Me: oh
Quinton: I changed his diaper though
Me: oh okay thanks
Quinton: why thanks he's my son I can change a diaper
Me: I just thanks for not leaving it for me
Quinton ; I wouldn't
He pulled me over him
Me: let me get dressed first
He let me go
And I put on a t shirt and shorts
He put his phone down messing with Mason
Quinton: are you hungry
Me: he can't talk quin
Quinton: he's hungry baby
Me: give him here
Quinton: no just will you go get a bottle since your up
Me: it'd be easier for me to just do it
Quinton: yeah but I wanna a feed him
Me: fine
I went to the kitchen making a bottle and went back to the bed
I gave him the bottle and he fed him
I laid down on my phone as it started getting dark
Quinton : we gotta leave soon
Me: yeah
I locked my phone rolling to him with Mason in his arms
Me: you think your parents will be okay
Quinton : be okay?
Me: like like me and us and mason
Quinton: um
Me: honest
Quinton: yeah I mean as long as you dress like usual and not like showing a lot of skin they don't really like that but
Me: well okay but Mason
Quinton : what are they gonna hate a baby a cute baby at that hell nah
Me: they didn't like him before
Quinton: yeah but once they see his cute face they'll like him