Not Over You ~ Quinton Griggs

CHAPTER 64

I am 34 and a half weeks pregnant

If fucking hell
I have terrible Braxton hicks contractions
All day

I don't like laying here all day

I mean I do get catered to my every need and they cook for me and I'm pretty sure the house is clean
Nessa and quinton and charli have been my biggest help
Avani too but she's extremely extremely busy
She comes when she can
A few hours a day she comes by and hangs with Mason and me

They allow me out of bed for only 2 hours a day and a bath

I laid with Mason and we watched Mickey Mouse

Mason: mik mama
Me: are you hungry baby come here honey
I picked him up and breast fed him
Quinton came in with a plate of food for me
Lunch
Which was Chinese food I demanded for
Quinton: your lunch is here

Me: oo yum
I used my hand
Quinton: your breast feeding? Here let me feed you
He took my fork picking up a fork full of food
Me: that's so unnecessary q I can feed myself

Quinton: your feeding him just let me help you a little until he's done
Me: fine if that's what you want
Quinton: it is what I want
Me: could you actually do me a favor
Quinton: what
Me: can you get my pump so ya know
Quinton: yeah when I'm finished
He kept feeding me
Me: okay masons done
I pulled my shirt up
My breasts btw are fucking huge
Fyi if you want big boobs just have a baby and then have another one while the other baby is breastfeeding

Cause fuck does it make em grow
I mean I'm like a d now I I've always been a b

Thanks mase
Quinton got my pump
And I pumped for a while
Quinton : when your done with that do you want to take a bath
Me: yeah sure
Quinton : I'm gonna go run the water okay
Me: mkay
He kissed my head
Me: I love you
I said a little loud as he walked away from me
Quinton; I love you too baby
I feel like we're so off like he cares more about the baby in me then me

Quinton: cmon it's ready
He picked me up bridal style
And carried me to the bath even tho I can walk
He set me down on the edge so I could undress

We just don't feel the same
I got in the warm water laying back
Me: what have y'all been doing
Quinton: nothing much really me and Mason played outside and I bottle fed him and gave him a pancake for breakfast he ate it all on his own And charli tried to teach him new words
Me: awe
Quinton : he got a few new ones he uh he can say Presley not exactly correct but close
Me: awe
Quinton: it was cute
Me: I bet

Me: I love you quin thank you for everything really
Quinton: I love you too baby
Me: do you?
Quinton: do I what? Love you , I just said I do I say it every day
Me: yeah but you can say it and not mean it
Quinton : I mean it very much brie I love you so much, I love what your doing for our family, and having our kids
Me: it doesn't feel right q
Quinton: I don't know why then
Me: I just it feels like we're distant
Quinton : well maybe so but I think it's because we're apart
Me: cause you force me up here and you stay down there
Quinton: then I'll start coming up here more
Me: but I don't wanna be up here I wanna be down there with everyone
Quinton: okay I'll figure something out
Me: I feel like I'm separated from everyone
Quinton ; I'll fix it okay
He kissed me and my head
Quinton: I just want you to be happy and help the baby be okay
Me: yeah but it feels like that's all you care about is the baby
Quinton: are you serious?
He almost yelled
Quinton: really you think I only care about her, yeah I fucking care about her she's my daughter and I want to meet her soon, but I care about you too brie, Do you wanna know what the doctor told me, she said if you don't fuckin stay in the bed your gonna loose the baby, and loosing the baby is gonna kill you literally I will have lost my daughter and you I'll be a fucking single father
Me: I'm so sorry
I was shocked
Quinton: so yeah excuse me for wanting to keep the mother of my children living
Me: I didn't know
Quinton: I know the point was for you to not know