Jiara: My Mistakes Were Made For You

Part 15: The Gold I

Soo sorry for the late update but i lost myself in it and wrote a looong long episode so i'm posting it in two parts. I'll upload the next one right away. Enjoyyyy <3<3

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Kie freed herself from JJ's arms and walked away without a last glance at him. At that moment, she couldn't bear to be near JJ. She knew what she wanted was too much, but if JJ had felt even a little bit of what she felt for him, he would have expected it. That's what Kie did, all she did was wait while JJ was hanging out with every girl he came across. Because she knew, the thing between them was something more than youthful excitement, hormonal desire. It was something worth waiting for. But obviously JJ didn't think that way, obviously he didn't value her that much. He wanted to have her there, then, and he didn't have any problem risking consuming love and excitement because he didn't care enough.

JJ thought he was doing the right thing. Even though he hated to admit it, Kie was right again. Their timing sucked. Kie might believe she would love JJ one day, she might be confused by what they had been through, but if she felt like JJ, she wouldn't have been able to put it off. JJ knew, he had tried so hard to ignore his feelings, but he just couldn't anymore. As Kie could, they weren't on the same page. They had failed to love each other at the same time. And JJ was tired of all these fights, the tears, the constant yelling at each other. He had to give up, it was best for him and for Kie.

JJ continued on his walk a little longer, not feeling ready to go back to see Kie with the others. It was hard not being able to talk to anyone about it, but even if he did, he didn't know what to say. He felt like he had done everything wrong, constantly pushing Kie, confusing her, literally deceiving her. He saw himself as the biggest culprit in the situation they were in now, because even though Kie had told him no over and over, he had always tried his luck, and when she said no again, he was surprised and angry. He had left Kie almost helpless.

Kie, on the other hand, was sure that it was all her fault. She hated when JJ called her a coward, but if she could really muster up the courage and take a step without considering the consequences, everything would be alright. She was constantly battling her own logic, and every time she made a mistake and let herself go, she had to give JJ hope and then destroy it. Every move she made without thinking affected JJ, and every time she tried to make things right, the more she screwed up.

By the time JJ returned to the yacht, everyone was asleep. He too went quietly to his room and lay down, leaving his door ajar without noticing, and getting excited every time he saw a shadow passing down the hall, thinking it was Kie. But Kie didn't come. JJ knew deep down that she wouldn't come. Until then, it had always been Kie who had said no, so maybe this time, with JJ backing down for the first time and being the one who says no, they could finally close the issue.

The next morning, after filling their bellies, they made their final preparations. When they set off excitedly, it was past noon. According to their calculations, they would be in Guadeloupe by dawn the next day. After all, there was nothing like a dawn operation.

Shortly after they set off, John B came over to JJ, who was sitting alone on the deck and he sat down, smiling.

"Are you hiding?" he asked. JJ smiled, in fact he was really hiding. It was so hard to be close with Kie, he couldn't find anything to say to her, even looking at her face broke his heart. And on this little yacht, it was very difficult to avoid someone without constantly escaping to different places.

"I just wanted some time alone to think." said JJ.

"It's burning up you brain, right?" said John B. "I can't stop thinking man, will we find the gold, how are we gonna get out, what will happen when I see my dad..."