Our Love On Spring

Chapter 15

15

SANYA | After coming back to the Philippines

“BUT Mom! I want to!”

“Geoff, you, your Mom and I already talked about this, aren’t we?” Dad said with the voice of finality.

Nakita ko kung paano bumagsak ang balikat ni Kuya. Then, Mom's calm voice invaded the house.

“Hon, I guess it's okay.” Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at alam kong ganoon din si Dad at Kuya. Humarap si Mommy kay Kuya at hinawakan ang balikat nito. “oh, dear, I guess you're in a good hand that’s why you want to be there… okay, okay, puwede ka nang mag-enroll ka sa gusto mong pasukan. “

I can’t hear anything but the air-conditioning sound. A literal deafening silence.

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Kuya left the house a day before their school day. Mom really gave him a lot of money for the allowance. One thousand. Mine? Just same but monthly… Kuya's was weekly.

When Mom and Dad was off to work, I am the one cleaning the house. It's always like that. Hindi ko alam kung paano mag-a-adjust. Alas-sais pa kasi ang uwi nila Mommy. Kailangan wala ng kalat. Nakapagsaing na dapat.

Tuwing umaga ay papasok na ako, pag-uwi ko ng hapon, doon ako gagawa ng gawaing bahay. So, whenever I was having a hard time on school, some house chores is not done when they are on home.

“WALA KA NA NGANG GINAWA KUNDI TUMUNGANGA, PATI BA NAMAN PAGHUHUGAS NG PINGGAN HINDI MO MAGAWA?!” Mom's loud voice was all I can hear.

I blinked as I stopped myself from crying. Pumunta na agad ako sa lababo para maghugas pero sumigaw ulit si Mommy.

“Don’t! Ako na! Nakakahiya sa 'yo.”

Nagmamadali akong pumunta sa kwarto ko at doon napahikbi. Then, may sinabi pa si Mom na mas lalo kong kinaiyakan.

“Nasistress na nga ako sa Kuya mo na hindi ko makita at dahil sa thesis nila! Dumagdag ka pa!”

I sobbed, what's the difference of Kuya's school work if we have the same gradel level? I felt my continuous tears until I fall asleep.

“SANYA? Wake up, 'nak.” Namulat ako nang marinig si Daddy. He hugged me tightly. “Pagpasensiyahan mo na Mommy mo, okay? She was just tired at work and your Kuya was being a headache again for now.”

I just nodded. So am I, Dad, so am I. I am also tired.

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I inhaled a large amount of air, remembering Jiro. Sanya, your’s are so so little than his' problem. Your’s are just nothing compared to him. I said that to myself, so I could always remember that there's a lot of people who are experiencing much more worser than mine.

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“Sanya, can you make this much more better?” One of my classmate asked. I looked at the paper, it has my design for our cover. I just nodded and weakly smile.

Nang tumalikod siya, nilabas ko ang wallet ko. All I have was coins, next week pa ako bibigyan ng allowance nila mama. I just sighed.