Our Love On Spring

Chapter 21

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“JIRO, you okay, son?”

Napakurap ako at napalingon sa likod. Mom was standing there with a worried face. I forcefully smiled and nodded.

She sighed, “you won't go outside? You looked napipilitan. Siya, kung may gusto ka, nasa baba lang kami ng tatay mo, okay?”

I smiled, “thanks, Mom.”

When she left and closed the door, binalik ko ang tingin ko sa bintana. It's been a year… no contact with her. I smiled bitterly as I looked at the blooming Sakura outside Shawn's room's window.

The colorful and peaceful I've ever seen, is now… making my heart hurt. I can't breathe properly. Parang may nakatusok sa puso ko habang pinagmamasdan sila.

She did told me there would have a chance that she can be here, but I feel like it will continuously be like this. She's nowhere to be found. She won't contact me. She will leave me. If she will come back, I know for sure, she— leaving will be repeated.

I don't know why I agreed to be here. But I know… deep inside, I wanted to be here.

Ever since she left, I always see myself being distracted.

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“ANAK? Someone wants to talk with you.”

I stopped reading and glanced at the door. I sighed as I stood up and walked towards it. When I opened the door, Mom looks delighted as she saw me.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Could it be….

“Good thing you opened. By the way, she wants to talk to you…” doon parang hesitant si Mom, “… at you and Sanya's meeting place.”

I blinked as my smile lose. That means… that someone is not Sanya.

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I left the house with just my pajamas and a hoodie. I don't care about how I look anymore. Whoever that someone doesn’t have the rights to disturb me from studying.

I yawned. I looked above and smiled weakly. They can still make me calm but I can feel like there’s something groping at my heart.

I know I could still fix this feeling… because I know she will come back or we will meet once again.

My eyes widen. Napaawang ang labi ko at napasinghap. I blinked as I heard a chuckle on my side.

“Hindi na kayo bumibisita… hindi niyo tuloy nakita.”

Still… unexpected. T-the Cherry Blossoms that we've been making to bloom… finally have its pink blossoms.

Napalingon ako sa matanda, siya rin 'yong kumausap sa amin no'ng nakaraan. Funny… 'hindi niyo nakita' means Sanya didn’t visit it as much as I did.

I just sighed and looked above the Cherry Blossoms. But I, at least have the courage that I needed to wait her… just by seeing this.


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Sanya was not just someone who I thought won't make me realized things. I thought it will be just me who will teach her.

She… taught me the purpose of independency.

She… taught me forgiveness.

She taught me… patience.

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I walked back and forth. This is the reason why I don’t want to wait her here! My patience is getting thin! I know, anytime, my patience will be thinner than a smallest thread!

Yesterday, where I saw the Sakura, I decided to wait for her. Even if it is impossible, I still wait for her. I do believe that she's coming.

If she will… hanggang kailan ako maghihintay?

Will this thing won't give me a scar?

I puffed my cheeks as I walked back and forth continuously. Bukas… na lang ba ako maghihintay? Yeah, right. Napatingin ako sa langit. I guess it's already four pm or what. Napailing na lang ako at napagpasiyahang umalis na.

For sure, hindi siya papayagan lumabas kung andito na sila. For sure, pinaghihigpitan na naman siya. Her parents are so strict to the point I don't know if I could deal with them anymore. Not about how they handle Sanya but to how they are so unfair between the oldest and the youngest.

My mind, unexpectedly, remembered Geoffrey.

Naglakad na lang ako pauwi sa bahay. Napayuko na lang ako at ilang beses na bumuntong-hininga. I am waiting for her sa bahay nila Aunt because I know na pupuntahan niya ako doon… alam kong 'yon ang pupuntahan niya.

When my eyes laid on Aunt's House door, I suddenly had the urge to stop but at the same time run over there. I choose the former, for now… I want to just stare at… her… at Sanya!

“Tao po…!” she's facing the door, her back was on me. “Magta-Tagalog ba ako or English? I know he said na Pilipino daw sila… or mag-Nihonggo na lang ako? Ayy…!”

I chuckled, that she surely heard. Our eyes met, and I can’t help when my tears were suddenly forming around my eyes.

I walked faster as much as I could. Mabilis ko siyang niyakap nang makalapit ako sa kaniya. I hugged her tightly. My arms are wrapped around her arms. I can feel her warmth.

“J-Jiro! Hindi ako makahinga!”

I chuckled as I stop myself from crying. Pati siya ay natawa. I can feel her arms wrapping around on my waist, hugging me back.

Hindi makahinga pero niyakap ako pabalik. Geez.

When I loosened my hug, I look at her. Doon ko lang nakita ang mugto niyang mga mata. I sighed as I took her hand as I walk.

“J-Jiro… teka! Saan mo 'ko dadalhin!”

I rolled my eyes and just took her with me. I didn’t say a thing, I don't answer her questions because it won’t be a surprise anymore. I just walked until we reach our meeting place. Nasa gitnang tapat kami ng puno. I smiled soundly and look back at her.

Napakurap ako nang makita ang kabuuan niya. She was sobbing and tears kept on falling on her cheeks. Hinila ko siya palapit sa akin. I touched her cheeks, pinupunasan ang luha niya.

“Why…?” I asked carefully.

“I am sorry! I-I…” napahikbi siya at tiningnan ako na parang nagtatampo. “H-Hindi ko naman k-kasalanan na paghintayin ka. N-no need to treat me coldly.”

I softly gasp and later on chuckled. I sighed softly. Hinimas ko ang mukha niya gamit ang hinlalaki ko. I leaned slowly, waiting for her reaction. Instead of pushing me back, she gulped and closed her eyes. Napailing na lang ako at lihim na natawa.

I stared at her for seconds and smiled. How I miss this girl. Binaba ko ng kaunti ang ulo niya. I kissed her forehead.

“I love you,” I whispered.

Nang lumayo ako sa kaniya, nakatingin na siya sa akin. She was blushing and I can feel my cheeks burning. Mariin siyang pumikit at hinawakan ang neckline ng hoodie ko at tumingkayad.

And the next thing I knew, our lips are sealed. The same time wind blows with petals of blooming Sakura. The same time my heat beats louder and faster. I closed my eyes as I deepened the kiss. My first kiss. Under the cherry blossom the we both made bloom.

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“Uhm… ang ganda no'ng nagbloom, 'no?”

I glanced at her, she was looking up, a hint of redness of her cheeks is still visible. I just chuckled and nod, “well, kamukha pa rin naman siya ng iba, but yeah, it has a deeper meaning for us.”

She looked down. I just messed her hair. “Hmm?”

I saw her pout as she looked at me hesitantly. “You’re serious?”

Matunog akong ngumisi at tumango. She pouted more and leaned on me, hugging me.


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“Are you okay?”

Every time we're together, she always look like she's in verge of crying. I thought it was tears of joy or guilt or something, but she looks sadder and sadder as time goes by.

She nodded. Sumandal siya sa balikat ko at niyakap ang braso ko. “I just can't believe.”

I sighed, “you’re lying.”

I thought she will say I am wrong or how do I say but she stayed quiet. I just let her be. One day, she will tell me what's bothering her. Though, I hope it is soon as possible. Para naman matulungan ko siya at mapagaan ang pakiramdam niya.

“Let’s go buy food.” Iyon na lang ang inalok ko. I will just distract her so she can forget her problem for a while.

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“Hmm… ang sarap!”

I chuckled as I looked at Sanya. She was eating ramen. Napailing na lang ako habang natatawa. I sighed contentedly. Looks like she's happy now. My eyes stayed on her.

What's really bothering her? Thinking that, may namuong kaba sa dibdib ko. I know that her parents is one of the reason behind those sad eyes.

Will she leave again?

Nang matapos kumain, nagdesisyon na rin kaming bumalik. Malapit na kami sa hotel na tinutuluyan nila nang magsalita siya.

“You’re so quiet,” she said in a childish voice. “Siya, malapit na ako. Good bye? Kita ulit tayo bukas. Tapos— Jiro…”

Huminto ako sa paglalakad at hinawakan ang braso niya. “Ano ba talagang meron, Sanya?” Tinatanggal niya ang braso niya sa pagkakahawak ko pero mas hinigpitan ko. “Aalis ka? Na naman? No! Y-You're staying, Sanya. Don't you ever leave me hanging again…”

There and then, I saw her eyes covered with tears again. Like, earlier and like the past days. “Y-you…” Napaigik ako at halos mapatingin sa kanan. Her hand landed on my cheek. A loud sound was made. Napaawang ang labi ko sa pagkabigla. “I-I hate you.” Napaluwang na ang hawak ko sa kaniya. Agad niyang binawi ang braso niya.

I looked at her, even though I can feel a burning sensation on my cheek. She was sobbing but no tears was leaving on her eyes. “A-akala ko ikaw 'yong pinakahuling tao na didiktahan ako, na ikukulong ako. Wala kang pinagkaiba sa kanila!”

Magsasalita na sana ako nang bigla siyang tumakbo. I can't chase her… I can't understand her… I can't move my body. I feel like my arms become jelly.

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Maybe she was just tired of being caged by her parents. That's what I thought, but everything seems so unclear looking back. Dalawang araw na ang nakakalipas.

I sighed. Tumingin ako sa Hotel na tinutuluyan nila Sanya. ‘Yong katulad pa rin ng dati. I badly want to see her but my body is so weak that I can't move out of where I am standing. Binulsa ko ang kamay ko sa long coat ko. I was wearing a turtle neck long sleeve and a long coat, and pants.

“J-Jiro?”

Agad akong napalingon sa likod. I gasped lightly. I don’t know if I should hug her or distance myself. She's also wearing a long coat and a white shirt, and a pants and boots. Her eyes… mugto na naman. Napayuko na lang ako at napakamot ng batok.

“U-uh…”

“Jiro, I'm sorry.” Napaangat ako ng tingin nang marinig ko na naman ang hikbi niya.

I sighed, disappointed. “Can you please stop crying?”

She shed her tears, “I’m sorry. Don't worry, it's not you.”

Worry invaded my system. “Who hurt you, then?”

She shook her head. I pouted, a little tampo is building up, but all matter the most is she's already here.

“I should be the one saying sorry,” I said softly. “Come here, hug me.”

She bit her lips and nod, running towards me, wrapping her arms around my waist. “Y-you can’t hug me?” she asked.

“I am trying to be more careful, not reckless, like what I did the other day.” I patted her head and softly caressed her hair.

“Sorry…”

“Sorry,” I said. “I really am sorry.”

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