sober // s.wilk

(4) Feeling Spontaneous

My eyes fluttered opened, immediately shutting after the bright light blinded me. I slightly smiled, realizing that it was new day. Even though it's difficult at times, I try to stay as optimistic as I possibly can. My life is right where it needs to be, so I have no point in being selfish.

Finally adjusting to the light, I looked around me, but a wave of confusion washed over me. I focused my gaze on the body next to me, before realizing that I was at Sammy's place.

Judging from the outside world, it seemed like it was about 8am. I didn't plan anything for today, usually because Sunday's are the time where I stay home and do my leftover homework.

Without moving, I stared out the window, the sun shining brightly through. This is definitely the life. It may not be as extravagant as most people want it to be, but that was the best part. Simplicity is key, and being here with him, was the most simple but best part.

I didn't need designer bags, clothes worth a lot of money. It was as if Sammy was worth designer bags, more than that really, I didn't want to loose him.

Before I could continue, Sammy groaned next to me, indicating that he was awake. I slowly lied back down and faced him. His eyes were shut but I knew he was awake. The sun beamed against his flawless skin, his breathing steady.

His hair was sat on top of his head, all shooting up in different directions. Even when he is asleep, he still is absolutely handsome. "I can feel your gaze on me, you do know that, right babe?" My lips curved into a smile, as he slowly opened one eye. His arms found there way around my waist, as he closed the space between us.

He placed his head in the crook of my neck. "Good morning." I said as he left a trail of kisses along my jawline. I wrapped my arms around his neck, drawing him closer to me. "What time is it?" he spoke into my neck. "Around 8." we lie there in silence and for a minute I actually think he feel back asleep.

Days like these makes me realize how blessed I am to have him next to me. Just being in his presence gives me the feeling of satisfaction.

Sometimes I wonder why he chose me. I was one of those girls who played extremely hard to get. No matter how much I denied him, he kept going with such determination to get me to go on a date with him. Little did he know that with each passing day, my feelings for him grew stronger.

I finally agreed after a school year, and his reaction was utterly adorable. He started leaping up and down in victory down the halls and proceeded to yell out, "I'll pick you up at 8! Be prepared to fall in love with me!" Little did I know that we would end up being together for almost three years now.

A small grin formed on my face, as I reminisce the times we mutually shared. We did, however, have quite a handful of disagreements. It's normal in a relationship to not be perfect, we both definitely learned that. The fact that we experienced it together makes me think about how much we've matured the past years.

Before I could process my next thought, Sammy unknowingly interrupted me. "Let's do something babe," he paused for a second, "and not the regular, 'oh let's go to the mall, or 'ooh let's head to the movies.' nah I want to go somewhere, I'm feeling hella spontaneous."

I rolled my eyes as he kept blabbing on where he wanted to go and exactly what he felt like doing there. Did he actually forget that I just can't travel wherever and whenever the heck I feel like it.

School is still my number one priority, and I'm not like the Jacks, where I can just skip school to go and live my dreams, even though they're already graduated.

I don't really know what I want to do after I graduate, which kinda sucks but it's normal. Sometimes Sam goes LA every other week with the Jacks, and I'm stuck here, in Omaha.

It was only until he finished, that I realized Sammy was still talking. "So you're going to skip school for the week, and come with us to LA, babe." This is what I get for not listening to him.

I laughed, "Sam, I just can't fly to California whenever I feel like it." i feel him sigh against my neck, as he rubbed tiny circles on my thigh. "Once you're out of school then. I'll focus more on getting my music straight and after a few months of keeping it in, I'll tell the fans that we're dating." I could practically feel his smile.

Sammy is what you would call, "internet famous." Ever since he went on one of the shows on tour with the Jacks, his fame slowly began to rise. Which meant him being away from me more, sadly, but he's achieving his dream.

He hasn't real told his fanbase he was in a relationship, mostly because he's afraid I might get hated on. I rarely ever go on social media sites, but he can't bare to read what nasty things people would say to me.

"Well after you graduate, I'll take you to Cali for the first time, and it'll be me and you." he spoke up. My lips curved into a smile of the thought of us roaming the streets of San Diego. Or maybe even walking in the sand at Venice Beach. "So what's today's plan babe?" I asked curious to know the endless possibilities of what could happen.

"Nothing, today is the day I get to lay in bed, all day with you." God I love this kid.