ALORA

THIRTY SEVEN

ALORA'S POV

What does two lines mean?

I'm sorry please remind me?

What does two lines mean?

Fuck my life!

How was I to do this? Take care of a child? I could barely take care of a dog. I always hated babies, I always felt like they cried too much. I mean for someone who gets everything they want, they sure cry alot.... A woman would give birth and the baby would be doing the crying?

I just popped you out of my fucking vagina and you're crying? you did literally nothing!!!

Well, it worked fine cause I didn't really need to mingle with babies. How was I to take care of a fucking human like me? I could barely take care of me!

"Alora? Staying in there forever would not change anything" came Pablo's voice from the other side of the bathroom

Sighing I walked out of the bathroom, he looked down at me expectantly "what?!" I asked walking away, the pregnancy test tucked deeply into my grey short "Alora please stop this and tell me what the test says" Pablo said growing impatient "I'm pregnant okay! Happy?" I said trying to walk out of the room but Pablo beat me to it

"Are you not the least happy?" He asked closing the distance between us and placing his hand on my tummy "you have a life forming inside you" he said in awe, pushing his hand away from my tummy and waving him off "I am not keeping this baby Pablo, don't try to change my mind" I said Walking to the sofa beside the window and taking a seat

"If you do not keep the baby, then you are nothing like your mother" he said walking towards me " you have no idea what my mum was like for you to suggest such a thing" I countered "you are right, but she did keep you Even after knowing quite well your father did not want a girl" he said "she kept you because she knew every human deserved a chance to live" he continued "I know you have killed, but are you willing to stoop so low to kill a child?" He asked "it's not even a child yet,it's still it" I countered

"Evil is evil" he said, and I rolled my eyes "look who's talking" I said "who is talking does not make it less of an evil Alora and you know that" he said and I had nothing to counter that "think of what your Mum would have wanted Alora, and this is my child too. Don't I have a say?" He asked and I looked outside the window "we will do this together, I will be with you every step of the way" he said "the twins would have like a baby cousin, think about the joy it could bring us in this type of life we live" he said "exactly! This type of life we live isn't fit for a child, look how I turned out, look how you  turned out" I said "we turned out like this thanks to our fathers, but I am not like our fathers. Or so I think"

"I don't want to have a baby Pablo" I said "but I do" he replied

"This is beyond you not wanting a baby right?" He asked "what is the problem Alora, talk to me" he said taking a sit and pulling me towards himself "Bolsena said" and I felt him stiffen as I said her name but I continued "I shouldn't let a child have the type of life I had" I said as the tears rolled down "she is right Pablo, my childhood was not a life I'd wish on anybody. Maybe that was why I was so attached to my mum, she was my light at the end of the tunnel"

"I started training when I was six, I had killed at the age of nine. I was an addict and I was sent to rehab by my mum when I was sixteen. I got married to my first suitor at eighteen. Vincenzo's son. I was just eighteen, but my dad didn't care, he wanted a way to profit from me and since I was a girl, what better way to do that than to marry me off to form an alliance" I said closing my eyes as the tears poured down "I was just eighteen, he took my virginity that night. And I killed him that night. I was so scared, I didn't know what would become of me but I left without looking back. My dad married me off again and same thing happened, I kept on making enemies just because I despised  my father and his judgement. He was the reason for everything, and now my mum is dead, because of those enemies I made. She paid for my sins Pablo, I couldn't take care of my mum. What makes you think I can take care of a child?"

"Avraam Is dead Alora" he said "we both know the mafia doesn't work that way, you don't just kill one enemy and expect all others to back away. And aside that Vincenzo is still very much alive" I said "and so is my father" I said

"You know, Alora. I know you could have easily killed your father, why did you not?" He asked the one question I myself didn't have the answer to "I thought he'd change, he's my father and even though I might act all tough. It still hurts to know he hates me so much" I said, I don't even know if that made sense I just hope he understood

"He never deserved a girl like you, you were better of without him" he said "what If one day, this child I have in me tells this same thing you just said to me to her friend or her husband in the future, what if I'm better of without a child?" I asked

"And what if you are not?" He countered

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Am I the only one that thinks that Pablo is kind of manipulative?😑

Until next time muchachos 🍑

Marhthildarh

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