(District Series Two) The Deceiver [COMPLETED - NOT EDITED YET]

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CHUZELLE

Natapos ang araw kahapon at hindi ako gaanong nakikipagsalita sa kanilang lahat dahil hindi ko ramdam ang magsalita. I remained silent on my part and let them do what they want. Tutal, sa kanila lang naman ang grupo at buhay nila. I will let them do their thing and I am gonna keep my mouth shut.

Hindi ako nakialam kung anong gagawin nila kina Drew at kay Tadashi. Yes, after we talked a little. I became furious mad. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngayon ko pa lang naramdaman ang galit pagkatapos naming mag usap. One thing I know about myself is, I don't usually let out my anger on front of everyone. I always play with the card and play like a wicked witch but as like what they say, we cannot always keep our feelings by ourselves at all.

Lalabas at lalabas din ang ating nararamdaman kapag hindi natin mapigilan ang ating sarili.

Huminga ako nang malalim habang nakaupo sa gilid ng pabilog na lamesa. Drac, tried to talk to me but what's the point? Like what Tadashi said, I lost my interest on treasuring friendships since the day he left us. He left us and we almost all died.

Alam ko noon na alam niyang malalagay kami sa panganib and he knows his mom was behind it yet he kept it a secret and decided to leave us like nothing was grown on us, na para bang wala kaming pinagsamahan. I scoffed as I think about that. Hindi ko talaga mapigilan ang aking sarili na hindi magmura at magalit sa aking isipan, parang lahat na lang ata ng oras ko kahapon minura ko sa aking isipan.

And yeah, fuck this shit. Hinding hindi mawawala ang nararamdaman ko. Umirap ako sa hangin habang nakamasid lang sa labas. Their plan on escaping stopped because of what happened yesterday. Sabi nila baka bukas na lang o sa susunod na araw ipagpapatuloy dahil mukhang mayroong malaking isyu silang pagtutuonan ng pansin dito.

I must admit, I am quite thankful that they didn't shower me with questions nor any annoying things I don't want to hear. Sabagay, hindi naman kami ganoon ka close. Kadadating ko pa lang ilang araw ang nakakaraan and also, wala silang karapatan talaga na magtanong. The only ones who has the right to do that is Darc who I've turned down yesterday so he decided to not bother me anymore or he'll face my wrath and if I am serious, it can be more serious than that.

On the other hand, the twins has been starting to get close to me especially Alesia who I though who wouldn't accept me and who I thought she's gonna be that person who will always shower me with bad stares and stuffs pero nagkamali ako. Alesia and I have kinda know how this felt.

Parang isang tao lang kami na hiniwalay tsaka inilagay sa isa isang katawan. She's been very somewhat like to me. Para bang magkapatid kami. That is just a matter of contrasting things, I am not making it literally and no, it'll still not gonna happen.

And today right off this moment. Nagsisigarilyo si Alesia sa aking tabi. She's been doing that lately and I am liking the fact that she is being silent while beside me. We have this kind of 'mind your own business' thing. Hindi siya nagtatanong sa akin kung ano ba ang nararamdaman ko o di kaya ang tungkol sa nangyari kahapon. She is silent and just buzzing off the smoke also with me.

Her twin on the other hand is also here. Nandito sa aming harapan at mukhang tulog dito sa lamesa. Wala din gaanong ingay na nangyayari dito sa loob kung kaya't masaya ako dito. I don't like noises everytime I am thinking something serious and deep.

"Anong ginawa niyo sa grupo nina Drew and also to Tadashi?" Tanong ko dito habang nakamasid pa rin sa labas ng bintana na malapit lang sa amin. She let out the smoke from her mouth and let out a deep sigh. "Not as usual as I thought. Pinakawalan ni Anrey ang grupo nina Drew habang nandoon sa underground si Tadashi. Hindi ko alam kung anong meron sa inyo pero kung kaibigan niyo nga siya, then he deserved living on that underground para malaman niyang mali ang ginawa niya." Shocks. I didn't know good things can also come out from her mouth.