(District Series Two) The Deceiver [COMPLETED - NOT EDITED YET]

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CHUZELLE

The twins immediately asked me the moment I arrived at the hideout already middle in the evening yesterday. Yes, hindi ako kaagad na umuwi kahapon pagkatapos ng pag uusap doon sa lalaking hindi ko kilala.

I was confused and thinking, spacing out so I decided to not just to go home so I can think things thoroughly. They did not stop pestering me yesterday after I arrived that I accidentally shouted at them and lied too. I did not mean to shout but I mean it on lying.

I did lie on purpose. I do not want them to know that I now have the information about the Orb. Hindi ko iyon sasabihin sa kanila dahil hindi ko lang gusto. I want to keep it myself and no one elses.

Hindi ko sinabi sa kanila na may nakausap akong tao kahapon na hindi ko kilala at naniwala ako dito. I also lied the fact that I was drinking at a bar yesterday and did not just wander around. I told them I visited a place, a special one after shouting at them.

I don't know why I feel weird when the twin's reaction got ruined and turned into a questioning look when I shouted. It was as if, nasaktan sila sa ginawa ko.

I was only shouting at them and I did not mean it. I am pretty aware too of what I am doing. Alam ko kung paano nga ba nakakaapekto ang ginagawa ko, sa aking sarili at sa kanila. I am slowly fading away from them and I am also starting to feel like I do not want to but I want to keep myself as I am before.

So I have to lie and I have to do things on my own. I survived on my own and fed myself too, kaya hindi ko na sila kailangan pa. Just like what I said, I went here to see things on what might happen. Sa una hindi ko pa gustong umalis sa lugar na ito pero ngayon, hindi na ito pagdadalawang isip na. I am pretty sure that I want to get out of this place alone.

"Alesia, I am heading out." Iyon ang bungad ko sa kaniya nang makalabas ako sa silid. There were only two people here outside because everyone seemed to have had a very wonderful night. They decided to have fun before proceeding to their plans. And I am out from that. I can still act but not gonna help them anymore.

"Saan punta mo, Chuzelle? Anrey told us not to go out. It's dangerous and also, ngayon ang araw na gagawin na natin ang misyon diba?" Too bad for you all. I am not gonna help anyone in here. I will do it myself without any one of you knowing it.

"I want to visit the grave of my family before going out. Alam ko na kapag nagsimula na nga ang plano at magsisimula na tayong kumilos, mahirap na ang lumabas para bisitahin sila kaya gagawin ko na ngayon, habang maaga pa." Kalmadong ani ko sa kaniya. I remained calm and stop myself from oozing the way I acted last night.

Huminga pa ako nang malalim habang hinihintay ang isasagot nila. They will bite it. Alam ko na nagsinungaling na ako ngayon dito pero kailan pa ba ako hindi nagsinungaling? I was born and brought up to be a liar to survive and that is what I am doing now.

For the second thought of thinking 'I don't want to go', I realized that we have to leave this place before the government could destroy our life even more. Lalo na at nasa mata nila ang gang na ito, kung saan kasali din ako sa myembro.

"Okay then. We will tell Anrey about it. Magmadali ka lang." Oh don't worry. It won't take me a long time to steal it. "By the way Alesia." Bumaling siya sa akin na kanina ay nakatuon lang ang paningin sa sahig. She was avoiding me and she felt awkward about it. Pati ang kakambal nitong lalaki na si Daech.

"I am sorry about last night. I did not mean any of those." I said to her. Dahan dahan ay kumorba ang isang ngiti sa labi nito. It was not a wide one but it was enough for me to see that she maybe had accepted it. But really, this is my first time saying sorry in a sincere and serious way. I've never done this except for when my parents are still alive.