Poems

Human

I have been lost for a while now...

In this dark forest, where I can not seem to be able to find the way back home.

To be honest I almost forgot I have to go home.

I can not really remember how it was there

Or why I have left.

Was it warm inside?

Was it a house with dark old walls, crackling floor and dusty windows? Because that's how I remember it.

Were my parents happy and well? Were they loving and caring?

Was this just a feeling that I used to know so well, but yet I completely forgot it?

Anyway...

Let me tell you about this forest

I can not see the sun because the trees are covering it, nor I can feel its warmth.

It is so cold here that i have gotten used to it...

The trees are dark and very old, I think they might collapse any moment now.

Sometimes I hear some birds singing, but it's so sad it makes my skin crawl.

I really want to find the way back home which is impossible because there is no light to guide me.

I don't think I can go back...

As I close my eyes, I feel a stinging pain in my heart. 

It is so unbearable I think it will break me.

Slowly I wake up to find myself in my room, in the same house with dusty windows, crackling floor and dark walls.

I hear my parents talking in the distance, feeling relieved they are still with me.

Then it hits me.

That dark forest was not just a dream.

It was my mind taking over my heart.

The birds' song was meant to remind me of what I was slowly losing.

I couldn't see the sun or feel its warmth, because I turned cold and hateful.

And I couldn't see any lights on the path, because I have long ago, stopped believing in myself.

I shut myself down and became hopeless.

How can I change? 

When all I see before my eyes is the dark forest?

How can I change if I have no one, nothing to believe in?

I do not see another path I could follow, so tell me.

How could I ever change, when I'm just a mere human?