Poems

Forgetting

I was never meant to see that.

I was never meant to feel that.

I was never meant to know that...

But I did.

This deep pain which you caused

Has been crashing me ever since you came.

I was so heartless that I couldn't feel anything. 

And I liked it that way

Because it hurts.

People hurt.

Time hurts you.

Friends hurt you.

You hurt yourself.

But when you came you changed that.

You completely changed me. And I will never be the same...

You showed me love.

And it was so warm.

For once I felt alive.

I felt happy.

This feeling I can not describe. Neither the feeling you made me feel when you left...

This pain... Deep inside my heart... Carved in my soul... And hidden in my mind...

I'm just so desperate. I want to feel alive again, like you made me feel.

And I wonder... Are you feeling the same as me right now?

Or are you fine?

See? 

I liked being emotionless and heartless, because I couldn't feel any pain or hapiness.

With you I became sensible and fragile.

I want to forget those feelings quickly, because it hurts thinking of you...