Chandler Alexander : Alexander's Legacy (Possesive Series : Book 5)

The Proper Conversation

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Chandler Alexander's P.O.V.

I never seen him look so small.

Long gone was the confident, calm and collected angel who never back downs.

He looks tired and worn out, have he even been taking care of himself?

Not one of us dare to break the silence.

Us in one room brings back too many memories.

How long was it been again? 11 years?

Who would have thought that he'll go to me, do i always need to be in a hospital just for him to see me personally?

He loudly sigh in his seat before slowly looking up at me, kanina pa nakababa ang tingin niya, obviously not wanting to meet my eyes.

"How are you feeling?" Kunot ang noo at may pagaalala niyang tanong but it sounded so hesitant.

Its as if he don't know how to talk to me anymore and just that action pierce to me like a knife.

Malapit siya, the distance physically was small but we were so far away from each other now.

Both have changed in so many ways, both have grown yet we have grown apart.

"Im fine" walang emosyon kong sagot ng hindi inaalis ang tingin ko sa kanya.

He squirm on his sit noticeably, eyes conflicted, as if contemplenting what to do or say.

"What are you doing here" i had enough of us going in circles, we are not a child anymore and we are not playing games.

His eyes widen a little, as if he was not expecting my words. I dont.

"I-i..." his voice shake " i just wanted to k-know if you're okay" his voice getting quieter and quieter with each passing seconds.

I smirk, cold and it shows no mercy isang bagay na hindi ko gagawin sa kanya. But i was in too much pain to even filter any emotions inside me "aren't you 10 years late for that?" I amusely asked with no humor in it.

His eyes watered, he avoided my gaze as his body sagged weakly losing all the confidence he have left.

My eyes widen when tears slowly slid down his cheeks, he bit his lips as he was trying not to make any sound.

Guilt sink immediately, realization of my words slapping me back to reality, what am i doing? Why am i hurting the only person i never wanted to hurt.

I grip the sheets beneath me as i tried to find the right words to say cause when im around him its like all the words i know just left me.

"Sorry...sorry for hurting you" his eyes slowly find mine, i can now see all the emotions that are swimming inside him.

Raw and uncovered, no walls of calmness clouding it.

"A-alam ko..." he took a shaky breath "..i know sorry will never be enough for all the pain i put us both through, sorry kasi di ako kasing lakas mo" his pause to breath again na para bang nahihirapan siyang huminga.

"S-sorry kasi i can't fight for the love i have for you..sorry--sorry for always hurting you...i-i just want you to be happy and i though that if you marry her and have a child---" nagpintig ang tenga ko sa narinig ko mula sa labi niya.