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Chapter 9

TW
There will be intrusive thoughts of self harm and graphic descriptions of self harm in this chapter. As well as mentions of attempted sa/sa, rape and human trafficking. And lastly, panic attacks. This chapter will be pretty full on so, pls dm me or feel free to vent in the comments if needed.

um so i asekd for yalls opinions on if the story was going too slow/fast etc, and it was very helpful bc um idk my brain just cant pcik out errors

Over this last week, I've learnt a few things about my brothers. Like Vincenzo's fear of spiders or how Luca is an awful cook. (No offence Luca) I walked down to the kitchen when I heard yelling coming from the dining room, I cautiously paused and put my ear against the wall to try and listen in, usually I would just mind my own business but this time I was curious..

"How long are we gonna keep lying to her?!" One voiced exclaimed. "We're just trying to keep Audrey safe, she's only fifteen!" The other one replied. "Luca's fifteen and he knows." A new voice pointed out. What were they talking about? What are they lying to me about? Why do they need to keep me safe?
I decided I had enough of listening in. I needed answers.

Audrey baeeee dont do this pls (why am i telling her this when i legit decide what happens lmao.)

"Lying to me about what?" I asked raising an eyebrow at them. Turns out the whole family was there, having a conversation without me. Enzo, Aldo and Dad turned away and started whispering. "Audrey, we have something to tell you." Dad announced with an emotionless expression.

"Have you ever heard of the Mafia?" He asked. Wha- istg that only exists in books. "Like some sort of gang?" I questioned. He nodded. "Our family runs one of the most feared Mafia's in the world." So this was their little secret..

ISTG I NEARLY THREW MY PHONE OUT THE WINDOW WRITING THIS BC IT WAS SO FUCKING CRINGEY PLS SEND HELP I CANT DO THIS
TW
Mention of rape.

My thoughts trailed off, I had heard of the term before but I never expected the mafia to be a real thing. And what did they do? Kill people? Torture innocent people? Rape children..? Were my own brothers rapists? I had so many questions. But I couldn't bear to look them in the eye..

Um did i use the wrong bear/bare? pls lmk my brain isnt processing anything today, i forgot what a metaphor was pls send help.
TW
Thoughts of self harm.

I leaned against my bathroom door, the urge to relapse was stronger than ever now. My hands were itching to get a hold of the blade and just cut my worries away. I closed my eyes. And wished that this was all a bad dream. But I knew it wasn't..

Haha...um pls dont kill me for putting poor Audrey through more shit than needed in this next bit but anwyas..
Luca's POV:
I knew Audrey wasn't okay after finding out. I could see it in her eyes, she looked scared. But I don't know why. "We shouldn't of told her." Vincenzo grumbled. Aldo shook his head "she was eventually going to find out." Aldo did have a point, Audrey would've found out eventually. "I'm gonna go talk to her." I mumbled and went to find her.

I looked in her room but she wasn't there. But then I heard something, quiet muffled sobs were coming from the bathroom. "Addi, are you in there?" I asked knocking on the door. She mumbled a "go away." What had upset her? "Please unlock the door Addi." I pleaded.

TW FOR GORE AND GRAPHIC DESCRIPTIONS OF SELF HARM.
PLS DONT READ IF THIS WILL TRIGGER YOU OR UPSET YOU.

Blood. Tears. Blade. Were the three things I saw when I walked in. Tears were streaming down her face and blood dripped onto the tiled floor. "I'm sorry." Audrey whispered. It broke me to see her like this, and the worse part was I didn't even know why.

I carefully took the blade from her hands and placed it on the counter. Fresh cuts littered along Audrey's wrists. Her usually happy face was tear stained. I held her as she wept, no more secrets..

"Hey Luca-" Alessandro's face dropped when he saw Audrey. He immediately ran out to get Enzo.

Audrey's POV:
Relapsing. It was oddly soothing, comforting even. It had been five months since I last picked up a blade. And here I was crying on the floor of my bathroom in Luca's arms.

"Merda.." Enzo muttered when he saw the state of me. "Luca, pass her to Vincenzo. You need to go have a shower, Gio make sure he's okay." He told them. Luca cautiously passed me to Vincenzo, I could see the worry in his eyes.

"It'll be okay principessa." Vincenzo murmured as Enzo cleaned up my wrists. I knew they would want answers after what had just happened, but I just wanted to sleep and forget about today's events. "You're all cleaned up." Enzo said giving me a sympathetic smile. I went to get up to go to my room but I was stopped by Enzo. "Bambina, until we know that you're okay and why you relapsed you are not going out of our sight." He sighed.

I curled up on the couch and unlocked my phone to text my friends. They were the ones who made me promise to stop cutting. I knew that my brothers were upset because they didn't know what had caused my relapse but I didn't want to tell them why.

Audrey- hey how r u guys?
Charli- im good, we miss uuu.
Pia- sad, i miss u.
Lucy- I'm happy, but I miss you.
Audrey- thats good, i miss u all smm.

I couldn't bring myself to tell them. So I turned my phone off and decided to have a short nap.

"Addi? Can I talk to you?" Luca whispered tapping me on the shoulder. I nodded. "What caused you to relapse?" He asked. "I don't wanna talk about it right now Luca." I mumbled. He looked upset but nodded. We sat in silence and watched a movie on Amazon. if u dont know what that is Amazon prime is like netflix kinda.

"Question..you guys don't take part in human trafficking or anything like that do you?" I questioned. "No, that sort of stuff is banned. If anyone in our mafia takes part in it then..there are fatal consequences." He replied. I felt a wave of relief rush over me, it was like a weight had been lifted off me. "Why do you ask?" He said looking confused. "No reason..just wondering." I murmured looking back at the TV.

Luca sat there frowning at the TV, quite weird if you ask me. He then turned to look at me and asked "what did he do to you?" He knows. "What do you mean Luca?" I questioned. "You know what I mean Audrey." He grumbled. I hesitated before answering. "He tried, a few times he came close to it. But never succeeded." I murmured looking down at my hands. Needless to say Luca was pissed. "Don't tell them, please?" I asked. "Fine." He muttered. "Promise?" I mumbled. "Promise." He replied. I yawned and grabbed Mr Bear off the floor, poor Mr Bear. "Is that my teddy bear?" Luca questioned looking hurt. "Mhm, Mr Bear is mine now." I smirked.

Bambina= baby
merda= shit
principessa= princess

I snuggled into Luca's side and closed my eyes, sleeping now would probably mess up my sleep schedule but do I care? No. Plus Luca was rather comfy, so I definitely wasn't getting up now.

An hour or so later.

I sat up and looked around. The sun looked like it had just set and Luca was gone. I got up and went into the kitchen and there they all were. They all turned to look at me, "hey bambina." Enzo said softly smiling at me.

"Audrey, we would like to talk to you about something Luca told us." Dad told me. He told them..Luca's face was a mix of guilt and sadness but did I care? No. He broke a promise. He couldn't even keep a promise for over an hour. "You told them?!" I hissed. "I had to, I'm sorry Addi." He murmured. "First of all, don't call me that. Second, I trusted you and you broke that." I snapped. "Audrianna Ricci, don't speak to your brother like that. He was worried about you." Dad scolded me.

I felt bad for yelling at Luca, but he did tell my secret.

This chapter was an effort to write.
It feels like it flopped but im lazy so ill edit it later.

Um it was pretty full on and let me know if i forgot to add any tw.
Whats ur opinions on the story, be brutally honest.

My motivation rn doesnt exist, but i wrote this bc i luv u all sm.
charli xoxo