Not your average girl <3

Chapter 13

TW for this chapter: none, but if a part triggers you please lmk so i can add a tw!

Audrey's pov:
"So you're bisexual?" Alessandro asked.

"Yeah, you can stop squeezing the shit out of me now." I pleaded.

"Oh yeah sorry Addi." He mumbled stepping back.

Earlier that night/afternoon
Halloween. Tonight was Halloween and if you didn't know my brothers were throwing a party. Which is supposed to be the best part of the school year according to Hazel.

I had on a tight little red dress that finished mid thigh. Something my brothers would freak if they saw me in, but I haven't seen them tonight and I brought it with me from Australia.

Eleven o'clock ticked around eventually and before I knew it the house was packed with horny drunk teenagers.

Hazel had sneaked away to the bathroom with a guy (most likely to give him head.) So I was lonely, Laura was probably passed out on the lawn. And I had no idea where August was either.

Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get blackout drunk like my brothers and friends otherwise I would probably end up in hospital. Or worse six feet under..Seeing as alcohol lowers my blood sugar.

"Hey, you're Audrey right?" A girl who looked around my age with ginger shoulder length hair and about the same height as me  asked. "I am, who are you?" I asked her. "I'm Tess, and I just wanted to ask where you got that dress you're wearing because you look really hot. And I wondered if I could grab your number, sorry now I'm just like spewing words-" She babbled.

Dont worry guys for this kiss Tess gave consent its ok, we all love consent here.

I cut Tess off by smashing my lips against hers. Her hands gripped onto my hair, letting out soft moans in between kisses. She pulls away and starts to leave a litter of hickeys that trail along my neck and collarbone. Usually I'm the one who dominates when it comes to girls, but not tonight.

"Audrey?" Tess tapped me on the shoulder. "Mhm?" I mumbled. "Your um brother's are watching us." She pointed out. I turned around and saw Luca, Gio, Alessandro and Vincenzo standing there.

"I'll go, here's my number and good luck.." Tess murmured passing me a piece of paper. I nodded taking her number.

"Hi." I said awkwardly. "So you're bisexual?" Alessandro asked pulling me in for a hug. "Yeah, you can stop squeezing the shit out of me now." I pleaded.

"Oh yeah sorry Addi." He mumbled stepping back.

Ten hours later.
Still Audrey's pov

I walked to the kitchen where everyone seemed to be. Mariana was there as well, by now I'd gotten used to her being around. I'm not sure how Aldo managed to pull her but somehow he did. The boys were all hungover from last night, to be honest they looked like shit. (Sorry)

"Someone looks like they had fun last night." Mariana said observing the collection of hickeys I had on my neck and collarbone. I blushed.

"So tell me, who was the lucky boy?" Mariana asked. Enzo and Aldo looked up in interest, the others already knew that it was a girl and not a boy.

"It was a girl actually." I smiled. The three of them looked surprised, not disappointed like mum had been.  "I'm happy for you hermosa." She said. Enzo had already engulfed me into one of his bear hugs. "So is if you're bisexual you like girls and boys? Aldo asked looking up from his laptop slightly confused. Mariana sighed, "yes amor it does."

Poor aldo is a bit slow sometimes.
amor=love
hermosa=lovely

Thinking of mum hurt. It's been what, six weeks.

And I've barely thought of her. Am I a bad daughter?

Maybe I am.

I don't think they even had a funeral for her, if they did I wasn't invited. I know she loved me, but sometimes I wondered if she loved me why would she let him hurt me. Would someone who loved me let that happen?

Apparently writing your feelings down help. I'm not sure if it works, but I'll try anything at this point.

Dear mum,

I remember making daisy crowns with you like it was yesterday.
But in reality that was eight years ago. It doesn't feel like it.

I'm still trying to figure out how to live without you now that you're gone.
It's been rough at points. I suppose you never thought I'd lose you and that I'd now be living halfway across the world with six brothers and a father I haven't seen since I was three.

I know I wasn't always the best daughter, and we'd fight. I still feel guilty how I didn't get to hug you one last time before you left. I guess you never know how long you have left right?

They say there's five stages of grief.

Denial

Anger

Bargaining

Depression

Acceptance

But I feel like I'm going through all five at once.

How is this possible?

Its like im losing control and watching everything slip out of my grip.

The worst part is i feel maybe if i hadn't left that night you'd still be alive.

I guess that's a part of the third stage of grief, bargaining.

I miss you.

Love Audrey.

I left the letter on my desk and went out of my room to find Luca or anyone I could find.

Because I could really use a hug right now.

I think we could all use a hug rn.

also this letter will be important ;)

Sorry that this chapters shorter than usual, but i just havent been doing well with mental health.

How is everyone else?

Favourite brother?

Anything you would like to see in future chapters?

I love you all sm.
Dms r open.

Charli <3