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Chapter 14

TW's for this chapter: self harm.

Luca's pov:
Addi had asked me to grab a hair tie from her room, so I was searching through her stuff trying to find one. I found one on her desk. But there was something that caught my eye. A letter.

I scanned over it. Checking the date it had the top it had been written recently.

I had no idea Addi was still feeling like this. But she is good at hiding things I suppose.

I also never knew what my mum was really like.

Sometimes I'll see mothers with their kids, and wonder.

Would my life be any different than it was now if mum had stayed?

"Luca! What are you doing?" Enzo questioned standing in the doorway of Audrey's room. "Um well, she asked me to grab a hair tie?" I replied in a panicky voice. "Right, well tell me what you were actually doing. " He demanded. "I was about to leave when I found it, but then I saw there was a letter on her desk.." Enzo sighed, he didn't look mad. Possibly disappointed?

"I know you worry about her Luca but you should respect her privacy." Enzo advised. I nodded looking at the floor, feeling too embarrassed to look him in the eye. "But is there anything I should know about?" He questioned. "Not really, it was mainly about her mum." I mumbled.

TW,  self harm relapse.

Audrey's pov:
I laid in bed with the moonlight shining in from my window. It was a peaceful night. Quiet, maybe too quiet? Something just felt weird, maybe I'm being paranoid?

Whatever this feeling was it wouldn't go away.

I crept out of bed and into the hall. Luca wasn't in his bed which was strange, but then I saw that his bathroom door was closed. "Luca are you in there?" I called out. There was no answer, I knocked but there was still no answer. I decided that I had no choice but to barge in.

Luca was sitting next to the toilet on the floor of the bathroom. But beside him was a blade. There were no visible injuries which was a relief I suppose. "Luca, what's going on?" I asked taking a seat next to him. His eyes were glossy and his hands were shaking.

TW over.

"I don't know what I was thinking Addi, I haven't felt like this in ages." He croaked. "C'mon, I'll tidy this up and you go to bed. I'll be with you in a minute." I whispered. Luca nodded and left the bathroom. To be honest I wasn't sure what to do. Should I go get Enzo? Or wait until the morning.

We laid in silence for about five minutes, occasionally I could hear a muffled sob from Luca. It hurt me to see him like this. He rolled over to face me and sniffled, "I'm sorry Addi." Why would he be sorry? I pulled Luca close as he wept into my chest.

"Tell me about mum. Please?" Luca asked. "She would always make cookies with me and loved painting." I whispered. "When I was diagnosed she stayed with me in the hospital and dried my tears with the hem of her shirt." Luca had stopped crying and seemed to drift into what I hope would be a peaceful slumber. I still held him close just in case.

The door creaked open slightly and I saw Enzo poking his head in. "Good morning bambina." He smiled. Now would probably be a good idea to talk to him about last night whilst Luca is asleep. "Can we talk?" I asked. "Of course." Enzo said looking confused.

bambina= baby

TW mention of attempted relapse

"Is everything okay tesoro?" He questioned. "Well last night I went into Luca's room and he wasn't there so I went into his bathroom, and he was on the floor with a blade. I was going to get you but I didn't want to leave him.." I told Enzo as my voice began to break.

tesoro = sweetheart

"Oh piccolo, I will talk to Luca now he'll probably be awake. But how are you feeling?" Enzo asked looking concerned. "I'm okay, just tired." I shrugged. "I'm going to talk to Luca, I'm sure Alessandro wouldn't mind if you hop in bed with him." He smiled.

piccolo= little one

I slipped under the covers beside Alessandro who was probably awake now but I'm sure he wouldn't mind. "Mfhm, is that you Addi?" He murmured softly. "Yeah it is me." I answered snuggling into his side.

Enzo's pov:
I stepped over the piles of dirty clothes and food wrappers to get to Luca's bed. Having a messy room was typical of him, well it was basically the same for all the boys.

"I suppose Audrey told you what happened?" Luca murmured as he sat up. I nodded softly. "Is she okay?" He asked. "Audrey's fine she's with Alessandro, but my main concern right now is you bambino. Tell me how it happened." I said ruffling his messy bed hair. "I'm not really sure, I had a flashback and then it all just happened so quickly." He breathed.

I knew what Luca was referring to, at the start of last year there had been an accident. It affected us all but him mainly. After that, Luca started to struggle with school, eating and self harm. I'm surprised that he's stayed clean for close to a year.

"Do you think you'll be okay while I go talk to Dad and Aldo? I think Audrey and Alessandro are in his room if you don't wanna be left alone." I said. "I think I'll go to Alessandro's room." He yawned.

As I walked down the hall to the staircase leading to the fourth floor I could hear laughter coming from Alessandro's room, followed by a couple thuds and thumps which sounded like a pillow fight was occurring.

"You look concerned Enzo, what's up?" Aldo asked me looking up from his laptop. "Luca nearly relapsed last night." I sighed. "Wait really?" He said looking concerned just as Dad walked in. I nodded. "Is everything okay boys?" Dad questioned. Aldo and I looked at each other, both of us knowing the answer.

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