TW for this chapter: mentions of eating disorders - anorexia , body dysmorphia , self harm, flashbacks of domestic violence.
(this chapter is quite full on for the heavy topics so maybe skip over any triggering scenes.)
Audrey's pov:
Schools starting to finish up thankfully, I didn't know if I'd be able to survive though everything going on at home and school at the same time.
Dad and Aldo have been coming home later and working much more than they used to.
There's just a little under an hour until winter break starts but till then I'm stuck in geography next to the hot blonde I gave head to. He's quite sweet actually.
"Did you know a shrimp's heart is in its head?" Caleb says to me. "Really?" I say snapping out of my thoughts. "Yeah, well according to google it's true." He smiles. "Well if it was google then it must be true."
I look out the window and watch the auburn leaves swirl around in the wind, the trees are pretty much bare now. I've always loved winter and autumn, even back home in Australia summer was never my favourite.
"Talk over winter break?" Caleb asks.
"Yeah, I'll make sure to check my phone."
A couple hours later.
"I don't know about the rest of you but I'm ready to spend this whole break playing GTA." Luca says tossing a pillow at me. "Well no ones stopping you." I say considering the fact that Dad and Aldo will be busy, and the other boys will find something to entertain themselves. And Enzo will be left to chase all of us around.
"What's upsetting you?" Vincenzo scoffs.
"Nothing."
Vincenzo rolls his eyes and mutters something under his breath which I can't understand, and then leaves. I look over to Luca and see he's already started playing.
TW - body dysmorphia and mentions of an eating disorder/behaviour
I stand in front of the mirror looking at the way my ribs are beginning to poke out. I knew how dangerous not eating enough could be, especially since I'm diabetic but after hearing what those girls said about me a few weeks ago I thought eating less wouldn't hurt.
"I mean her thighs look huge.."
"Considering she's always got lollies with her there's no wonder she's such a pig."
"How is she even related to them?"
TW over.
"Are you feeling okay? You don't seem to be eating much." Enzo says looking concerned. "Just tired." I say giving him a forced smile. Enzo nods while the others are eating like they haven't been fed in months and Dad is nowhere to be seen neither is Aldo. They're both still at one of the warehouses and probably won't be back until late.
TW - mentions of self harm
I turn off the shower and lightly dab at my elbows with my towel that are still raw from last night. I cover them with a bandaid and hope they aren't infected. Luca would be probably disappointed if he knew since I swore I'd tell him or one of my brothers if I ever felt like this again. But promises never work out.
TW over.
"It's not even that good, I don't see why you all like it so much." I say as we try to pick a movie. "Can we please just agree on something it's been an hour." Alessandro groans. Dante and Luca continue to fight on whether to watch Halloween or Aliens. "If you two don't stop I'm going to bed." I frown. "No ones stopping you." Vincenzo says back.
Hes been in such a pissy mood recently.
"Fine. Good night." I say stomping off to my room.
I wish Dad was back, he's not annoying like any of my brothers. I mean Enzo's not really annoying neither is Aldo when he's around. But Vincenzo really gets on my nerves but I suppose it's nothing new.
Recently I have been wondering what life would be like right now if I had stayed in Australia. Probably worse than here because at least I have family who care. Mum tried her hardest but I often wonder why she stayed with Michael. He was awful to not only her but me as well.
TW - domestic violence (flashback/memory)
"You need to toughen up, it was just a joke I still love you." He says trying to grab mums hand despite the fact he just threw a glass at her. "Michael..please just leave I need some time." Mum begs. "Fine, if that's how you want to be then let me know when you want a real relationship." He storms out of the house slamming the door.
TW over.
I shiver at the memory. Michael always disgusted me.
caleb
hey hows ur night been? :)
audrey
my brothers are being annoying as usual but not bad, got anymore facts for me?
caleb
well sea otters hold hands when they sleep
I smile at his text, Caleb's been great to talk to recently with everything going on. I haven't really talked to Atlas since he saw me with Caleb at that party. He did seem jealous maybe.
TW - slight mention of self harm
"You asleep bambina?" Enzo says opening my bedroom door allowing light from the hallway to stream in. "Not yet." I say rubbing my eyes. Enzo comes and sits next to me on my bed, "you have seemed off lately is there anything you want to tell me?" I lean on my elbows and wince. "Maybe. Don't be mad" He raises an eyebrow.
Bambina = baby
TW over.
I hold onto my stuffed bear as Enzo tucks me in. "When will Dad and Aldo be home?" I ask. "Late, they'll be at breakfast tomorrow. Now, do you want me to stay?" Enzo says brushing the hair off my face. I nod snuggling into his side. "You do know that I'd never be mad at you for something like that? Neither would any of your brothers or Dad. We love you more than anything." Enzo kisses my forehead.
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