A small Crush (Fruk)

Chapter 1

It's always been this way..... waking up every morning to someone who I can never love. Our families had always planned for us to marry at such a young age, however, I did not think they would actually go through with it. Now here I am! Five years later and stuck! I wouldn't say there was anything wrong with Amelia's personality, we had always been friends..... but that is all it was. I never saw her as anything more. That is probably why it has been hard to conceive with her. We have tried countless times for a baby, but I end up stopping.

It must make her feel like shit, but I just can't go through with it. The look on her face after is always the same. It is screaming, "why aren't I good enough." I hated making her of all people feel that way. She was a long-time friend, but I could not go through with it. Now, most days, she seems to be staring off more and more. I kind of wish she would have an affair. I want her to cheat on me and be happy with someone else. I don't want her to look depressed all the time.

"Why haven't you both had a baby yet!?" My in-laws asked the two of us. "We have been trying, I guess we are not so lucky," Amelia spoke sadly. "Well, you are not trying hard enough! Who will take over our finance company in the future if you both don't have a son?!" They spoke again. I began to ignore everything they spoke. I'm only 25 and still had a lot of time to have a kid, I just wasn't in the mood at all. Suddenly.... A hard slap hit the back of my head.

"Ow!"
"Francis! Are you listening?!"
"Yes!"
"Well? What is the issue?! I want to be a grandfather already!!!"
"I know! We will try again," I spoke nervously. I can't make any promises. I looked over to Amelia who kept her head down in sadness.

Once the meeting was over, Amelia and I drove in silence. She looked so sad, and I began to feel terrible.  "We will try again! I'll take it more seriously this time, I promise..."

I'm such an idiot.....

Her eyes looked at me, and they began to fill with happiness "really? You promise...?" She spoke with hope. I smiled at her softly and nodded my head. "I promise...." I spoke.

Like I said before, there wasn't anything particularly wrong with her; I just did not find her attractive in any way. Which is pretty bad!! Don't get me wrong! I felt terrible about the whole thing.

"How about tonight!!! It will be perfect!" She suggested excitedly. My smile began to form into a cheeky awkward grin. "Sounds great!!!" She cheered. I could see it made her really happy and I think it might be five years too late to back out of all of this.

I had dedicated five years of my life to be her partner. Being there for her through everything and although I didn't find her attractive, I still cared for her. I will always be there to protect her and care for her when she is sick. It was just sort of a friendly kind of love.  However, I feel there might be a chance that she really is invested in me. That she is in love, and she knows that it might be unrequited. I am sure there will come a day when she stops.

I am being a huge dickhead!!! I'm the worst person in the world for wanting my wife to cheat and have an affair. Hmmm.... I think it would go something like this!!!!

Scene!

"Francis!!! There is a confession I'd like to make?"
I will look at her curiously
"Yes, my dear?"
"You see..... I've been having an affair!!!"
She will cry! Hurting from the thought of breaking my heart.
"I see..... it can't be helped...."
I begin to fake cry and wonder what went wrong.
"We should definitely split then! You will be happier with your lover!" I will suggest.
Then hopefully, she will accept and divorce me!!

Scene end!!!!

That is how I imagine it going down. However, I wonder if it has any flaws in my mind. Maybe the fact that I went toward divorce instead of counseling. Who knows, though? It could happen, and she won't question it at all. Hopefully...

Once we arrived home, she went off into her private room to paint (as usual) tomorrow, we had to interview a few people for a position as our private lawyer. Our families usually had a private lawyer, but ever since my wife began to take charge of parts of her parent's finance company, she has changed a few things.

She put me in charge of hiring someone who met our needs of ours. We hardly used a lawyer, so I don't see a need. As far as I know, as long as they don't do anything sketchy and they seem very genuine. If I ever found out they did sketchy work, I'd be upset. Damn... Now I'm getting paranoid thinking about it.

I laughed at the thought and shook my head to get the idea out of it. I'm overthinking it. I think any lawyer will do, but I guess the people arriving tomorrow are supposedly the best of the best.

It is kind of impressive, honestly... being a lawyer sounds interesting. Hopefully, the people aren't boring; I think our company could benefit from having someone really down to earth that has more empathy than the last one we had. That man did not care about anyone, and it is most likely why they had to fire him and decide to go with someone else. I'll make sure to pick the perfect person tomorrow!! I am kind of excited to see all the different people come in. It won't be so bad ...

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This could be my last story depending on how it goes. If I decide to keep writing then I will but if not , I will be leaving the fandom so hopefully this goes well :)