Solavellan

Dreaming

Lavellan's P.O.V

I walked into the room I normally find Solas in. He rose from his seat at the desk once I was a few steps into his room.

"Inquisitor." He said looking straight at me.

"Solas. About the artefact, how do you know it's eleven?" I asked curiously while staring into his dreamy blue eyes. I could easily get lost in them.

"I found it while searching ruins in The Fade previously. I didn't realise what it was until I saw Corypheus in Haven" He told me, he knows everything thanks to his travels, is there anything he doesn't know? Well, I'm sure he doesn't know my feelings towards him. I hope.

"Is there anything else I should know?" I wanted to see if I could get any hints of what he feels towards me, I wish he cares for me as I care for him, I would be so happy, I wouldn't let Corypheus' evil, destructive plans ruin my happiness. I saw the future at Redcliffe, I saw how Solas had been affected by the horrid future, what the red lyrium did to him, it broke my heart to see him like that, in so much pain, so miserable, I won't let that happen to him.

"Come, let's talk somewhere more comfortable"

He headed to the door and I followed, few steps behind.

The next thing I was walking behind him in Haven. We were by The Chantry. He turned around to look at me and smiled. He was so close to me, I wanted to take the step between us and snuggle up to him, have his arms wrapped around me, and never have him let me go. I wanted that so much. I could have that. But I shouldn't. He wouldn't hold me in his arms, he'd push me away and leave. I don't want that. So I stay standing here, one step away.

"While you slept after you emerged from The Fade, I stayed by your side. I studied the mark, trying to figure it out. I travelled through The Fade trying to find anything I could about the mark."He stayed by my side? I find it sweet, it sounded like he cared about me! Oh, how I wish he loved me back.

"Solas...thank you," I smiled at him.

"When we were at the rift, when you put my hand in the rift how did you know it wouldn't kill me?" I asked, curious as to what he'd say.

"I didn't. But I hoped. And when I put you your hand into the rift, I felt the world change."

"What did you feel Solas?"

He blushed and looked away. I decided to take that one step. I placed my hand on his elbow so my arm was against his, lifted my hand to his face and kissed him. I quickly pulled my face away from his realising what I had done and began to move away. I am so ashamed by my foolish action. I was selfish, I let my own feelings crowd my judgment and looked too into everything. I turned off the sensible part of my mind and acted on the hopes he cared for me too. He's definitely going to leave The Inquisition now, and I'll never see him again. As I thought the last sentence I felt tears filling my eyes ready to spill. Then I felt his hand on my arm. He pulled me gently closer to him. I felt his other hand slide around my waist. I looked up just in time for his lips to meet mine. He kissed me. I was ecstatic. I couldn't think of a happier moment. The love of my life, who I thought only saw me as a coworker, a friend at best, didn't turn in disgust from my actions, instead, he pulled me back to him as he kissed me. A long moment later, he pulled away from me smiling. I must be dreaming, he wouldn't have done this. He wouldn't care for me. Would he?

"Solas..." I wanted to ask him if he did, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I was too afraid. And I'm meant to be confident and save the day. Some 'hero' I am.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that." But I'm pleased he did.

"Solas, don't worry, it's okay." I was still processing what has just happened. My overthinking was wrong, he wouldn't have continued to act on my rash decision if he wasn't interested in me. Maybe it could turn into something more.

"Come, let's go back to Skyhold" I asked confused, my train of thought lost as I took in the surroundings with the memories of Corypheus' attack resurfacing.

"We aren't actually here?" Haven was lost. Everything cane back to me at once,  my mind no longer focusing only on figuring out if I had a chance with him.

"No. Where did you think we were? This is The Fade." Oh. That makes sense. Why didn't I realise this before?

"Oh. How do we go back?"

"Simple. You just have to wake up"

I woke up. I was lying on my bed in my chambers at Skyhold. How did I get here? Solas must have taken me up here. I quickly got up and ran down to the main hall. I reached Solas' door, it was easy to navigate to. I've been to it so many times I don't need to pay attention to make sure that I'm going the right way. I just know. I burst through the door and stopped running. Solas had just stood up when I came in.

"About what happened...."

"I haven't forgotten." So it actually happened, it wasn't a dream.

"Neither have I"

"Please forgive me, Inquisitor, it was selfish of me, I shouldn't have done that." He looked down, as if embarrassed because he kissed me. It stirred up several emotions in me.

"Solas it's okay. I'm glad you did so. I'm willing to try a relationship with you with everything that's happening of you are...." I looked at him, wishing he would risk it. I'm scared he doesn't care for me and that it was a one-off thing. I looked away, realising I was staring.

"I...I don't know. I want to but I shouldn't. I'm not used to having such strong emotions towards people, let alone them back to me. I have to think about this." I was shocked. He actually cares for me. I wish it wasn't dangerous, with Corypheus to deal with it would make this difficult since we have to go off fighting Red Templars and trying to find out how to defeat him.

"Take all the time you need, Solas." If giving him time to think means there is more of a chance with him, he can have as much time as he wants.

"Thank you," I smiled.

"We'll talk later."

He smiled back.

"Goodbye."