Depressed // lh

Chapter 18

Luke's Point Of View

She's gone.

The girl I fell in love with is gone and I may never see her again. I tried to stay strong when I seen her walk towards the terminal to get on the plane back to Arizona.

Cathy held me as I watched her walk away, knowing in a matter of minutes I'll break down and scream for her to come back to me.

But, she couldn't.

I wished I did something that could prevent Noel from leaving and I was too late. She's on a plane going back where she belongs, a place that isn't here.

Her aunt comforted me as we drove to my house. She picked me up, so I could go with her and Noel to the airport. I slipped my hoodie over my head, so Cathy couldn't see any of my facial expressions.

I didn't dare cry.

I didn't just stay strong for myself, but for her aunt. She's also breaking. She didn't want Noel to leave, but she left anyway.

Her aunt pulled up to my house. No words were said between us. I mumbled a thank you and goodbye. I made my way out of the car and towards my house.

I quickly ran up to my room and slammed my door. I'm glad my parents aren't here. They're not about to witness a breakdown. I slid down my door until I touched ground and I screamed. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I didn't feel the urge to wipe them.

I miss her.

I want her back.

Why did she have to leave me? Why couldn't she stay? I started bawling my eyes out. I threw the nearest object towards the wall. I jumped into my bed and screamed into my pillow.

I never knew someone leaving could cause this much pain.

--

It's around three in the morning and I still can't fall asleep. She's all I think about. I grabbed my phone from the nightstand and unlocked it. I tapped the gallery icon and instantly smiled.

A bunch of pictures are from Noel. Some are good, some are bad, but I wouldn't tell her that. I clicked on one of us. I still remember that day like it was yesterday.

"Come take a picture with me," Noel said, taking my phone from my hands.

I groaned, but laughed. I never knew Noel was so into pictures, and I know now. "Fine."

Noel sat next to me on the bench, putting the phone in a good position. I smiled while she did. After the picture was taken, she clicked on it.

"It's beautiful," She said.

"Just like you," I said.

I tapped on the home button and locked my phone. I looked at the ceiling above me.

I wish you were here.

--

"Dude, you need to get out of bed," Calum said, hitting me with a pillow. "Go enjoy the sun or go on a walk. It's a beautiful day."

"No," I said.

He groaned. "Luke, I'm sorry that she left, okay? But, seriously, you should go get some fresh air."

I threw a pillow at Calum, but missed drastically. He smacked me again with a pillow and sighed heavily.

"Come on, Hemmings," Calum said.

I groaned and pushed the blanket off me. I slipped on a pair of shoes and followed Calum out the door.

There wasn't any words exchanged between us. All I wanted to do was crawl back into bed and cry. Cry over someone who isn't coming back.

We arrived to Calum's house and walked inside. I walked towards the basement while he went into the kitchen. I took a seat on the couch and sighed. I remembered.

This is where I first met her.

Calum walks down the steps and stops once he seen me. I didn't realize tears were falling out of my eyes and down my cheeks. He sighed and took a seat next to me.

"It's going to be okay," He said. "I miss her, too."

"But, not as much as me," I cried. "She changed me into a different person. I can't believe she left right before I could express my feelings for her."

Calum held my shoulder tightly. "She made her happy. I've never seen someone so happy. In fact, I've never seen someone make you as happy as she does. We all want her back."

--

I entered my house after a day with the boys. I know they're trying to help me after Noel leaving, but I really need time to myself. I need to think about what's going to happen now that she's gone. Should I wait for her to come back? They won't actually be for awhile, or maybe never. Should I call her? Text her? I don't know what to do and it's killing me. I don't want her to think I've forgotten her. I would never do that.

I realized that I love her. Love isn't something that's in my vocabulary, but with Noel, I'll make an exception. I want to kiss her. Hug her. Hold her. There isn't anyone in the world that's like her. I can't compare no one to her.

The fact that she's gone kills me. How am I supposed to live?

Come back. I miss you.

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LUKE HAS FINALLY SPOKEN! I DECIDED TO MAKE THIS SHORT BECAUSE THERE IS SO MUCH HAPPENING AFTER THIS! THANK YOU AND COMMENT WHAT YOU WANT TO HAPPEN!

- Meep