True love

IV

       Sinead

Waking up to an empty bed is so heartbreaking. I'm surprised Julian didn't come in here last night. Even though we fought, I kinda wish he would've came and held me.

I wish he would've just said sorry and that everything is gonna be okay. This was the second argument we've gotten into since I've been back and I don't wanna make this an everyday thing.

I want us to be happy. I wanna wake up to a smile and his adoring eyes every morning. I don't want to lose him. I climbed out of bed then went to brush my teeth.

Once I finished, I made my way downstairs. I went into the kitchen and Julian was sitting at the table eating a bowl of cereal.

"Good morning." I stated as I grabbed a banana. No response? He's really mad at me. How am I gonna get out of this one. I made myself a yogurt parfait then stood at island, and began eating.

I watched as Julian finished his food then put his bowl in the sink. All while not looking at me. I could bursts into tears right now. I will not let him see that this is hurting me. I'm always the one who's crying and crawling back. Not this time. I wasn't in the wrong.

After finishing my food, I go back into our room to see Julian laid on the bed. I climbed on top of him and sat on him. "Sinead get off." He stated placing his hands on both of my thighs.

"No, not until you tell me what's wrong." I said crossing my arms. I'm gonna act like a baby until we talk things out. I hate being on bad terms with him.

"Sin, you blowing up on me over an assistant was so uncalled for." He stated. Uncalled for? I feel as though I had good reasoning.

"But you blowing up over Jesse is okay?" I asked. He sighed then massaged the bridge of his nose.

"That's different, you know that's different." He stated placing his hands on my thighs once again. Here we go, the same argument we had two days ago.

"How? because you can't stand seeing a guy other than family having love and caring about me?" I asked.

"And you can't stand that another female finds me attractive and has access to me." He replied.

With that being said, I stood up and began to walk out of the room. "If she has access to you Julian then just go ahead and fuck her! Do it!" I yelled stomping downstairs.

"You know that's not what I fucking meant Sin! Stop being so insecure!" He yelled back as he followed me downstairs. I stopped dead in my tracks and turned to him. He stood on the bottom step and I walked up to him.

"I'll never be insecure over a female that wants you, Julian I'm not the same girl I was when I was first here... I love you but I will get put through the bullshit I went through, I feel a way about Joanie for a reason... You can keep her as an assistant but I swear to god, one slip up and I'm done." I spat.

He stood dumbfounded and I just looked at him. "Cat got your tongue? Get out of my way." I said then bumped past him. I walked into the bathroom and started the shower. I need to get out for the day.

After my shower, I put on a blue off the shoulder top and ripped jeans. I did my makeup then brushed my hair out. Once I was done, I grabbed my things then walked downstairs.

I reached the door just as Julian walked out of the kitchen. I just looked at him and then turned around. "Please come back."

Julian

I pray she heard me. Arguing with Sinead is really getting the best of me. I love her entirely too much to lose her. I'm afraid that if we keep arguing, it'll push the relationship over the edge.