True love

VIII

Sinead

Waking up with a broken heart and two kids in your uterus has to be the worst shit ever. I sat up in the bed and look over at Jesse who was asleep on the couch. I love the fact that he lives in a studio apartment, it's so convenient.

I climbed out of bed and slugged to the bathroom. I did my business then took a glance at myself in the mirror. I look like shit, pure shit. I chuckled to myself and shook my head. Let me get it together.

After washing my face and giving myself a mini pep talk, I walked back out. Jesse was now awake and in the kitchen making breakfast. He glanced at me and shot me a genuine smile.

"How are you feeling?" He asked mixing the pancake mix.

"I'm okay." I replied then sat on the sofa.

"I'll take that." He stated. Good because that's all I got. I grabbed my phone and unlocked it.

I had a couple texts from friends, asking how I'm holding up and if I needed anything. I told everyone that I was doing fine and that if I needed anything I'd let them know.

"So what are we doing today?" Jesse asked.

"Well I have to go get my things from Julian's place, then go to the guest house." I replied.

"You need me to tag along?" He replied.

"No, I think I need to be alone." I said. He nodded then went back to cooking.

Once he finished, we begin to eat. Jesse is an amazing cook, I don't know why he never thought to take up a culinary career. We talked and reminisced about those good old days five years ago. The day we first met and the girls thought they were total weirdos.

Us taking that trip together and going Christmas shopping with each other. I cherish those memories but honestly if I could, I'd change a lot of things I did. Maybe I would've listened to my friends and gave Jesse a shot when I had the chance. Let me not get into that.

We finished eating and after we washed the dishes, I grabbed my things. Jesse walked me out to my car and we stopped.

"Thank you for everything, I appreciate you so much." I said hugging him. He wrapped his arms around me and we rocked side to side. He held me tightly and kissed the top of my head.

"If you need anything, and I mean anything... I'm one call away." He replied as we pulled away.

I opened my car door and got in. "I love you!" I smiled.

"I love you more, be safe." He responded closing my door. I waved then drove off. Now back to real life. Back to the shit show.

I stopped at my parent's house and took a quick shower before heading out again. Rena said after her conference with Kai's teacher, she's gonna take me grocery shopping so there will be food in the house. Thank god, she knows all the healthy pregnancy foods.

Pulling up to Julian's house and seeing his car in the driveway is enough to make me shit myself. I really hope he had a driver pick him up. I don't think I can face him. What if he says something mean?

I took a deep breath then got out. It's okay Sinead, ignore him and get your shit. It shouldn't be that fucking hard, you've dealt with worse. I used my key to get in, and the house was completely silent. He must not be home.

I go upstairs and enter his bedroom. It's empty. He must really be gone, damn luck is on my side today. After grabbing my suitcases, I began to pack. I'm fighting back so many tears right now. Why am I even doing this? We should be happy, we should be in love right now.