Why am I here? (Sequel to the meet-up!)

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TW - healing from past surgery, sh scars, and slight eating disorder

"C'mon dumbass! Wake up!" A voice shouted as someone shook my shoulder as gently as they could.

My left arm reflectively went up to smack the person, only for a hand to hold mine down. 

"No. You're still recovering" 

"I think I've recovered long enough, let me lift my arm"

"No! I'm not paying for the hospital bill if you really hurt yourself, so you can't lift your arm that high" I open my heavy eyes to see Eclipse there, holding both my arms down. They looked as if they had just taken their morning run, as they were wearing an exercise top and were extremely sweating. 

"Ew! Get your sweaty hands off of me" I pull my arms away from them and sit up in my bed, my blankets sliding down to my waist. 

"How's your chest?" They asked, and did a hand motion to represent my now non-existent boobs. 

"Sore, but it's fine" I throw the blanket off my legs and stand up, pushing Eclipse out of my room "Now go shower. I'll make breakfast" 

"Solar's making pancakes!" They yelled through the door before I heard them clump down the hall. 

I turned around swiftly and went over to the wardrobe. The room was quite cramped with the bed, wardrobe and desk, but I still had enough room to grab my things. I had nothing fancy to do today, so my outfit was just a hoodie and sweatpants. I didn't put a shirt under my hoodie though, because I had been telling the truth to Eclipse, and my chest was quite sore, so wearing a shirt underneath would probably make it worse, especially since all my shirts were quite tight. 

As I changed, I ran my hand over the scars on my calves, feeling the skin bump up slightly as my hand passed very scar. I hadn't cut in a long time, since the meetup ended. I had thrown the razors out before I had left Dream's house, and it was a smart idea, because as soon as I got back, Eclipse had gone through my luggage, making sure to remove anything I could hurt myself with. They also went through my groceries every time I would come back from the store, making sure I didn't get razors or anything sharp. And after all that time of not cutting, the cuts had healed, leaving scars from the really deep ones. 

I sighed and pulled on the pants, feeling the soft material brush against the skin around the scars. 

It was a bit hard to get my hoodie on since I wasn't allowed to raise my hands over chest height, so I sat there, struggling. There was then a knock on the door, and the door opened, revealing Solar who was still in his pyjamas. He sighed when he saw me and walked forward, helping me to get my hoodie over my head without raising my arms. 

"Eclipse is still super protective?" He asked, signing at the same time. Even though he had been talking for a few months now, it was weird to hear his deep voice. 

"Yeah" I fix my hoodie, trying to keep it from brushing against my chest. 

"Wait is that my hoodie?" Solar asked, pointing at the black hoodie I was wearing with the white eye graphic on it. 

"Maybe. You'll never know" I pull the sleeves over my hands and brush past him, heading to the kitchen where Eclipse was waiting. Since I struggled with the hoodie for so long, they were done with their shower, and their hair stuck to their face as they loaded up their plate with some pancakes and bacon. They looked up as I approached, and smiled, pushing a different plate towards me. 

Looking down at the plate, I felt my stomach turn. It was just a single pancake with two pieces of bacon, but think of all the calories that the food contained. What if this caused me to get fat? I was already fat enough from Eclipse forcing me to eat everyday, but I didn't want to continue to gain weight. I needed to lose weight. People wouldn't like me if I was fat. 

I could feel Eclipse's gaze on me, so I pushed away the thoughts and grabbed the plate, putting on a fake smile as I grabbed utensils. 

I walked over to the table, not looking back but hearing the twins begin to talk to each other in a hushed tone. It would probably be smart of me to listen, but I couldn't bring myself to it, so I just started to cut up the pancake slowly, before taking a bite. 

It was as if my throat had closed up and the soft pancake seemed to scrape at the side of my throat as it went down. But I just took a sip of water and continued eating the pancake. Once it was done, I nibbled on the bacon, sipping my nearly empty cup with every chunk that scraped it way down my throat. 

When my plate was finally empty, I finally noticed that Eclipse had moved from the other side of the kitchen and was sitting next to me. When they noticed that I was done, they smiled and gave me a side hug. 

"I'm proud of you" They said before letting me go. 

"I'm gonna go stream now" I say, standing up and going to leave the room before Solar stopped me by grabbing my arm. I wasn't sure why he stopped me though, as usually the twins let me stream, especially since the money I make is what we use for rent. The money they make from their part-time jobs is just money for food. 

"Actually Ranboo, we need to talk to you about something" Eclipse says, and Solar lets go of my arm, before walking across the room with their twin "We're moving"

"Wait what?" I am very confused now. Once I had gotten back from the meet-up, one of the first things they had told me was that I was going to live with them forever, or until I found myself a lover. So if they want to move, that either means they're forcing me to leave or they're dragging me along. 

"We're moving to the UK!" Eclipse said, lifting their arms up to show their excitement. That was unnecessary though, as I could hear it in their voice "And you're coming with us!"

"But I won't be able to help pack. Remember 'no heavy lifting and no arms above head'" I mimic Eclipse for the last part, and I watch as they roll their eyes at me. 

"I remember that, and I planned for that" They smiled and pulled out... wait was that my phone?

"Also why are your contact names so boring?" Eclipse asked as they opened my phone and started to scroll through what I could assume was my text messages. "oooo what's this stuff with Tubbo about?!" Eclipse got excited at the end only for Solar to yoink the phone from them. 

"Ok, to shorten everything down, me and Eclipse decided to move to the UK, and since you can't help much, we're sending you down there early to stay with your friends" Solar said, passing me my phone before Eclipse could take it back. 

"How did you plan this all behind my back?" I asked them and Solar shrugged. 

"No clue. You're just very oblivious. Now c'mon, we should go pack your stuff" Solar left the pouting Eclipse behind and passed me, heading towards my room. 

"Wait, when am I leaving?" 

"In two days. Eclipse booked a strange flight path though, so I hope you like Canada"