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ʚ𝐘/𝐍'𝐒𝐏𝐎𝐕ɞ
I'm sure he can sense that somethings wrong. The tighter he holds my hand, the more I want to pull it away, letting my arm fall by my side, not clinging onto his. I keep my eyes glued to the ground, sparing fleeting glances at my surroundings before the weight of his gaze becomes too heavy again and I let my head drop.
My mouth has opened multiple times, edging my words, teasing his ears. But I've barely spoken since we got back. After a day of nothing but pure happiness and excitement, I shouldn't be feeling like this. It's been gnawing at me slowly throughout the day, but now as we're walking through the park I can't ignore it anymore. learnt independence at a young age, forcefully. I was a child who's happiness had just been ripped away from them and was now left to practically fend for myself.
I had no one by my side for years, and I grew to like it that way. I never felt pressure to speak of my feelings. Never felt obligated to be happy all the time. But now I have someone by my side. And I still don't feel any pressure or obligation like I thought I would. Just comfort and trust. But also reliance.
Admittedly my days used to be the same. An endless cycle of waking up and just making it through the day. Nothing special, just existing. I'd never wake up excited for what the day would bring, or be eager to get out the house. I just felt numb to everything, to everyone. I envied people's smiles, the way their eyes would crinkle as their lips quirked upwards, sounds of genuine happiness leaving their lips. I wanted that, I craved that.
But I never went looking for it. It's funny to me, I could have chosen any job from the town noticeboard, but I chose Nanami's. A small, run down coffee shop that barely got any customers over every other job. But I wouldn't change my decision, after all Nanami led me to him.
To Megumi.
"Y/n, did I do something wrong? I-I thought you would like the gallery. Was it the proposal thing, I promise I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable I-"
"Megumi." I cut off his rambling. I meet his eyes and the raw emotion within them almost makes me stumble back, the crease between his brows and the way his face is slightly screwed up shows exactly how he's feeling.
He looks sad.
"It didn't make me uncomfortable Megumi, I had the best time today, truly."
His face seems to soften and his eyes light up.
"But-"
And the dull again.
"But you called up my work, and lied, just because you couldn't spend the day without me? As endearing as it may sound to some, I can't do that every day. You can't expect me to just drop everything for you. I won't."
