Blue Hour

15.

"Oh you're up!" The first person I recognized was Chris.

"How did you know where-" I tried to sit up but a sharp pain shot through the the back of my head.

"You just try and stay still." He said turning to me. Sofia was driving. "I kept calling your phone. Apparently you were knocked out by the alcohol so the bar tender picked up. He was kind curious about the blood. I made up some shit. Nice guy."

I couldn't care less of what he told the bar tender. Plus my eyes were feeling heavy and I was still kinda dazed. I stared at the road passing by. It was early morning and the sun was starting to rise.

"I wanna see Haley." I said, mostly to myself. The car was silent. I knew both of them heard it. The pain that was building inside of me was too much for me to handle. I want to cry but there's just no tears coming out. I wanna scream but my voice was just locked in some kind of cage deep in my heart. I want to talk about all of that, I want to talk about Haley, but no one will understand. It hurts that the only person with whom I wanted to talk about Haley, was Haley.

"We'll take you back." Sofia said, her eyes on the road. "But before that you have to go home and get changed. You're covered in blood and you smell like alcohol. And of all people you know Haley wouldn't like that."

I silently sat there obeying what ever they said. It's not like I have a right to do anything anyways.

When we got home I noticed Damon had brought Kat home too. She came outside. The moment we made eye contact I thought she would try to kill me, but a second later I felt her hands wrap around me pulling me into a hug.

"This is what she would have done." She whispered to my ear. Kat's words were never meant to torture me, but it hurt me. And it just held me together till I was able to talk to her again. In a way I saw Haley in her.

I stepped under the shower letting the warm water wash down the scares. I threw away the clothes I was wearing. The glass fogged with the steam of the hot water. The water was hot almost burning my skin. It was silent except for the running water, until I heard her little voice. Giggling. She was smiling.

For a moment a smile made it onto my face filled with hope but it was followed my the harsh realization.

I see her, everywhere. She's a part of me that followed me no matter where I was.

It's just been a few hours. A few hours without me knocked out cause of alcohol, I'm already starting to feel like I'm losing my mind.

Chris's POV

When I came out of the shower I was greeted by the doctor version of my girlfriend. That serious steady look she gave me as she made me sit on the chair examining if I've got any cuts.

I looked at her focused on me but I simply spaced out. I'm afraid of what Kayden might do to himself. The last time he was this crazy when he heard his sister died. Even then he wasn't this lost. I haven't been this scared my whole life. I wasn't able to protect her this one time and it might even get her killed. She was trying to save me. She's dieing for me. This guilty feeling was killing me inside out. So this was the feeling she was carrying with her all these years after dad's death? But she never spoke of it except blame herself for it. I guess it's clear why she felt guilty. It's not a thing to be proud of, having some else to sacrifice themselves for you.

"CHRIS!" I snapped out of my train of thoughts when I heard Sofia yelling. "Were you even listening to me?"

"Uh... No.... Sorry!" I breathed.

"That's okay." She sat down beside me, obviously reading my thoughts. "He'll be okay. Kayden I mean. I spoke with Kat too. We'll help him out till Haley wakes up."