Blue Hour

05.

A few days went by. Me and Kayden were just on a ferries wheel at the carnival. The sun setting and the wind blowing in our hair as we reached the top.

"Do you know what Blue hour is?" He asked me.

"Blue hour?" What was that?

"It's like this 20 to 30 minute time when the sun is setting and said to be the time when the sky looks beautiful the most." He explained. I liked it when he just randomly said stuff like this.

"Well the sky is quite beautiful right now." I said. Slowly leaning over to lay my head on his shoulder. He moved his had throwing it over my shoulder pulling me closer to him. "So what time is it now?"

He looked at his watch. "It's almost 6."

"No. What time is it exactly." I giggled.

"It's 5.53 your highness!" He said making a joke.

"I think I'll be here at 5.53 every day if I can."

"And I shall accompany you where ever you may wish to go to Princess." He was doing this weird but cute old accent thing.

"Stop that!" I playfully punch his chest while laughing a little.

"Stop what? Calling you princess? Or the accent?" He ask.

"Stop making me blush."

"But I like it more when your cheeks go red." He suddenly made me face him.

"Fine." I sighed. He does that a lot. He makes me happy. He's ruthless when it comes to killing. He doesn't care at all. I never thought a boy who lost everything cause of being a mafia will ever be warm hearted like him.

Of course he wasn't like this when I first spoke to him, or now when he's around other people. We met him a few days after he was rescued from a bomb attack while he was on a mission. He lost his sister and his friends to it. His heart went cold as ice when he found out, even after my dad hired him and all that. It took him a little time but I remember how I saw him crying for the first time. He's never cried since then. He could be cold as ice. He's just afraid of letting people in and then end up losing them.

"I love you!" I whispered as I held onto him. He's my protector, my safe place. I want to be the same for him.

"I love you more!" He whispered back as we both stared at the setting sun.

"In another world we are actually happier." I said out of the blue. "No fears, no hiding. Just you and me and our little family."

"We'll make it happen." How do we even dare to dream of such a life?

We got off the farriers wheel to find Kat and Damon waiting for us. Kat was holding a plush. It was cute for some reason. I mean Kat is a damn badass girl who can fight 2 people at once but here she is clinging on to Damon holding a stuffed animal like a little kid. I guess considering the way I had my hand locked in with Kayden, I wasn't that different from her either. How funny? We're just kids stuck in adult bodies.

"So we will just go for a walk down the lake." Kat informed. "Just wanted to tell y'all before we left."

"Okay." Kayden said while holding onto my hand. "I'm just gonna go buy my girlfriend a stuffed animal."

Damon smiled knowingly. When they both left I turned to him. "You were joking right?"

"Yeah." He said. No way he was gonna buy one. "I'm just gonna win you the biggest bear in the world."

"What?!" He has got to be kidding me.

And yes. We went to mall and I ended up going home with a stuffed animal in my hand. This is ridiculously adorable.

It was a Saturday night so it meant we were probably gonna watch a movie. Family time. We sat down on the big couch in the living room. Chris in the middle, me and Kayden to his right and Kat and Damon to his left. We were watching a romantic comedy and suddenly I noticed Kat and Damon were kissing. Chris turned to me almost like he was looking for help. The thing was, even I was basically sitting on Kayden's lap, wearing his shirt, snuggled into him.

"You can't be serious!" Chris said out loud. Kat and Damon both turned their attention to him. "I'm feeling single as hell. You guys have to stop making me feel so single." He was joking around.

"Or...." I could make this an opportunity to tease him. "You could find yourself a girlfriend."

Laughter. That's what we want. For this house to feel like home and not a safe house. To have a family here, we just need to let go of the heavy weight in our chest. I know it's not that easy but in a few more weeks we will be free. We'll finally live the life we want.

I felt Kayden's fingers glide against my skin living a trail of fire as it did. I wanted him so badly but here in the living room was not a good idea. Instead I snuggled my face into his chest and left a trail of slight kisses on his chest. I kiss his neck then slowly onto his lips. My mind wanted to push away the remind that Chris, Kat and Damon were here too. He kelt pulling me into the kiss. I slightly tugged on his shirt pulling him back into reality. I felt his breath on my lips before we both silently went back to watching the movie as he continued to trace circle on my skin.

A few minutes later I felt my eye lids getting heavier. Not long before I couldn't keep my eyes opened.

Kayden's POV

I felt her leaning against my chest. I looked at her and realized she fell asleep. I wished I could just devour her right here right now but that was not an option.

"I'll take her to bed." I whispered to Chris. He nodded and I stood up with her in my arms. One thing about this family is, I'm a complete outsider, but I've never felt like one. It was so clear in the way they trusted me. Chris loves his sisters and is extremely protective with all his heart but he just smiles and nods when I asked to take her up to her room, simply not worried about a guy in her room. True, I am her boyfriend but still, I wish I was able to make sure not to break that trust.

I carried her towards her bed slowly laying her down. I wanted to stand up straight but she was tightly holding on to the strings in my hoodie. I sat down next to her admiring her innocent face.

I remembered every the very first day I saw her. I was kinda embarrassed being all wrapped up in bandages not able get up when she walked in with her father. But I met her eyes when it hit me, she was different. Not long before I realized their family was not like other mafia families. They actually love and care for each other. Love is that one thing I craved for in my life, that one thing I lost along with my sister.

Her breaths were steady, her chest going up and down with every breath. She's been through shit in life just as much as I did. At some point we're just broken and we help each other rebuild this house. But this time we build it together and it will be our home, our little house of memories.

She is my happiness. One thing I never want to loose. My heart was tired of all the times it's been broken, it's being held together by her. And I'm sure if something happens to her, my heart wouldn't want to continue.

"I love you!" I whispered before laying a kiss on her forehead and walking out of her room.