Blue Hour

08.

Kayden took off all the weapons I had on me. I didn't even flinch at his touch anymore. I was so used to his cold fingers. Perhaps that touch never meant anything to him. The traces on my skin the warm breaths I felt meant nothing. The guards cleared out until it was just me, him and Quinn.

"You know I have a lot to tell you about your boyfriend." He grabbed my chin making me face him. "One. Somethings he told you were never lies. He even tried to warn you today didn't he." He harshly pushed me aside. "As for you." He turned to Kayden. "Don't try anything funny, or you'll be the first to see her dead body."

"You won't have to worry." I said for the first time in a while. I was looking at Kayden, straight in the eyes. I loved this boy. I still do. But he never did. And I hated myself for still being in love with him. "It seems he never loved me anyways."

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I was put in a small room with basically nothing but a chair. There was a tiny square of bricks cut out, obviously with bars. But what hurt me more was that I could see the open sky out of that little space. I guess it was meant to torture the prisoners. To let them see there's a world outside but they were never going to be able to reach it.

Out there was the world I never explored. The world I wanted to see with him. The sky I looked at with him. Those clouds looked at me with pity for they held the memories of our past together. They are probably laughing at me for not seeing this, for being too blinded by my love for him.

Hours ticked by and I had no clue what time it was, but the sky looked beautiful. I was curled up in a ball sitting at the corner of the room. I breathed in the musky air in the room right before the door cracked open.

It was Kayden. I wasn't expecting to see him ever again. For a mare second our eyes met but I looked away, but he still had his eyes on me. I couldn't look at those deep brown eyes anymore, they were no longer my safe place. I wanted to run to him, let him put his hands around me, feel safe closer to him. But he was no longer my Kayden. He was there standing right at the door, but too distant.

"I remember my Haley usually runs over to me." There was a hint of pain in his voice. Or was her making a joke? Either way it hurt me.

"Maybe that's where she made the mistake." I said. Those words took a lot of effort. Of all the things I've done, I never even imagined regretting my decision to love him. I never thought I'd say I wasn't his anymore. "She ran to you when she was suppose to run away."

I stood up, looking outside that small opening. The sky was beautiful.

"I did those things to save you." He said. It was an act. I told myself. For five whole years he was just helping Quinn.

"Why?" I looked at him. "Why would you ever tell me you love me? Why would you do those things to protect me if you were going to betray me here anyway. My dad's gone Kayden. He's never coming back and you of all people know I still blame myself for that. Now Chris is probably trying to kill himself for not being able to protect me."

"Haley I-" The heaviness in my chest felt like it was pulling down to the ground.

"Why didn't you just send me to my dad when you had the chance? Why didn't you just send a bullet through my head with that gun next to our bed. You could have just stabbed me when I gave into you every single time. Why wait? So I can remember every time I let you take control over me when he tortures me to death? Cause I FUCKING LOVE YOU! I held on to dear LIFE for you. JUST KILL ME ALREADY!"

I stopped as he looked at me in shock.

"Did you ever love me Kayden?" He stepped back. His eyes softened. Had all those nights meant nothing to him? Every time I thought he kissed me with love, Every time I gave in to him, was he just having fun playing with me?

"I love you Kayden!" My voice broke at the end of my sentence. "I still do, but I honestly wish I could stop. I can't forgive you anymore."

"I tried. I won't expect you to forgive me either." I turned around. "I just came to see you. I'll leave."

He opened the door. But there was something I wanted to know.

"Tiger?" It slipped out of my lips. He turned around almost immediately. Is he still lost? He looked at my eyes. A tear rolled down my cheek as I spoke. "What time is it?"

He looked at his watch. Then knew what my question was about.

"It's Five... Fifty three."

I nod, then went back to looking out the small space. I heard the door close behind me. I dropped on my knees. Even if I survive this, I don't know if my heart will. I know I said I won't forgive him, but I knew in the end my heart always does.

Kayden's POV

Crying is something I usually never do. Specially for the past several years since I met her. The tears didn't come out today either. It wasn't making it any easier for the fire that was burning my whole chest.

I broke her. I broke the last bit of her heart she let me hold.

I walked down the hall not exactly knowing where to go anymore.

"I see you've been visiting the prisoner." I hate that voice. "I told you years ago. If you don't give me what I want I wouldn't mind taking away everything that's important in your life."

"You killed your own daughter!" I spat at him. "You think I don't know how heartless you are?"

He laughed. How was it funny recalling the death of his own child. "I always wanted a son Chris. She was nothing to me. And besides she was more of a sister to you than she was my daughter."

"You fucking heartless monster!" I clenched my fists.

"Now now son. She would still be here if you would have accepted my offer to lead this gang after me." He tapped my shoulder. "And you see, after that you've done exactly what I wanted you to do. I've learned that if I want something from you I have to take something from you first. And you'll play exactly how I want you to" He snickered. "But if you keep refusing, you know who's next in line. Maybe she could even meet her father."

I glared at him

"I lead the team to you." I snapped. "You have everything they owned even the trainees. What more do you want?"

"You." He smirked. "Take up my place after me pledge yourself to the Quinn's."

"If I do that. Will you let her go?" I need him to let her go.

"First you do everything I say and I might consider letting her go. If you refuse, she'll have scares engraved on her for your mistakes." He turned around to leave. "And you can start by calling me by what you're suppose to."

"Yes." I said slowly, my head hung down not looking at him.

"Yes who?" I hate him.

"Yes... Dad."

And he walked away leaving me in the suffocating dark corridor.