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TW: Throughout this story there will be mentions of abuse or abuse so don't read this story if these things can trigger you

"Derek?" Meredith called out for her boyfriend

"Yeah?" An 18 year old Derek Shepherd walked into the bathroom

"Are you sure your mom's okay with me staying over?" Meredith asked concerned

"Of course, Mer" Derek nodded "Let's go downstairs, mom made us dinner"

"Derek-" Meredith pulled at his arm "I don't know"

"Mer, are you worried because of the baby?" He asked and placed his hand on her soft stomach were a tiny bump was forming

"Derek, your mom-" Meredith whimpered

"She knows, Mer. She isn't happy but she said she wanted to help us" He pulled her in for a hug

"I feel so ashamed. And not because of our little wonder or you or whatever. Just.. Once again I'm not good enough and what if I'm not good enough as a mom?" She whispered, tears forming in her eyes

"Derek, Mer! Mom wants you to come down for dinner"

"Derek" Meredith whimpered, she was completely frozen in her spot

"Here, take your anxiety meds. Your OB said it was okay" Derek handed her her pills and they slowly went downstairs

"Hi" Derek smiled at his family

"Hi" Meredith whispered as she followed him, still holding his hand

"Mer, mom made lasagna!" Amelia spoke up. She was a few years younger than them and really looked up to Meredith as she only had Mark and Derek as older brothers

"Thanks Carolyn for letting me stay" Meredith smiled softly, looking into the older woman's eyes

"Of course, Meredith. You're part of the family" She softly smiled even if she didn't think it was their best shot to get pregnant, she was gonna support her kids through this "When do you have your appointment with your OB?"

"In three days. Would you like to come?" She asked without thinking or without asking Derek

"Are you sure?" Carolyn asked and Meredith looked at her boyfriend

"I'd love that" He said and Meredith nodded, smiling back at Carolyn

"Okay, I'll make sure I can come with you" Carolyn smiled

"Thanks mom" Derek smiled "Are you okay?" He asked Meredith as she picked at her food

"Hmm?" She looked up

"Are you okay?" He quietly repeated. He felt everyone's eyes on them

"Of course" Meredith nodded without even looking up and took a bite, Derek decided to drop it for now

...

"Meredith, dear. Can we talk for a moment?" Carolyn asked as they finished emptying the table

"I'll go help Amy with homework" Derek said and kissed Meredith's lips to assure her she would be okay but she was shaking. Her hands were shaking

"Meredith, don't worry" Carolyn rubbed the girl's back and led her outside to the porch where they took a seat on the hammock "How have you been doing lately?" Carolyn asked Meredith

"I've been fine" Meredith replied shakily

"Meredith, I've known you for a while now and I know you're not fine" Carolyn tried to get through her "How have things been with you and your mother?"

"Okay" Meredith's voice cracked. she wanted to start crying

"Really?" Carolyn questioned

"Just-" Meredith tried but stopped again

"Go ahead, I'm not judging you" Carolyn pulled the girl closer in her arms

"We had a fight. Again. She said I'm worthless" Meredith admitted "She doesn't even know about the baby and- If I see how you help us, then I just wish she'd react the same but she's gonna kill me if she finds out. She'll throw me out of the house and- and I can't become homeless. I have to work but I can't pay for an apartment" Meredith whimpered as breathing got a bit harder

"Hey, hey. Whatever happens, everything will be okay" Carolyn kissed Meredith's head softly

"I can't end up being homeless with a baby" Meredith started crying

"You won't. We'll always have a spot for you here in the worst case" Carolyn calmed the girl down

"Mom?" Amelia walked outside

"Amy, can you get your brother and send him here? I'll come check on you in a minute" Carolyn told her

"Mer?" Derek walked towards her, feeling very concerned about his girlfriend

"I think she needs you, Der" Carolyn kissed Meredith's forehead and made her way back inside

"Hey, what's wrong?" Derek pulled her in his arms, resting her head on his chest and rubbing circles on her back which usually calms her down immediately

"My mom- I'm so scared, Derek" She cried in his arms

"I know" He sighed, hating how Ellis was towards Meredith

"She'll throw me out of the house, I'm sure" Meredith whimpered

"Then you're coming here or I'll find us an apartment. I promise that everything will be okay, Mer" Derek kissed Meredith's head

...

Later that night Meredith and Derek were laying down in bed, talking about their baby

"I like Tommy" Derek said while his fingers were stroking the skin of Meredith's stomach

"I think it's a girl" Meredith quietly said

"You think?" Derek asked with a soft smile "I like Alice"

"Emma's cute too.. Or Riley?" Meredith looked up at Derek

"I like Emma and Riley as well" He smiled and kissed her stomach "We'll make sure you'll get everything you need. Your mommy and daddy will do everything that's possible to make you as happy as possible" Derek whispered and noticed Meredith fliched "Mer?" He frowned

"What if I'm a bad mother? I don't know anything about mothers" She admitted

"You're not even close to being a bad person so there's no way you'll be a bad mom. You love our little bean already so I just know you'll do great" He wrapped his arms around her

"I hope" She mumbled as she buried her head in Derek's chest

"Don't worry too much, we'll both have to get used to this but it will be okay. Everything will always be okay" Derek tried to convince her

"It's just so scary.. We only have one chance with her, we need to give her a good childhood, Der" Meredith heavily breathed

"It will be okay. Now close your eyes and sleep. You and our bean need it"

"Kay" Meredith mumbled and closed her eyes while she was focussing on Derek's breathing

Hi guys! New story! I hope y'all enjoy this chapter, feel free to send me ideas! 

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