I Did Not Abandon You "MaxNat"

Episode 14

Nat narrates:

I admit I was disappointed; because he doesn't want me to get close to anyone, but he doesn't want to touch me either. I don't really get it; So I decided to go for a walk with Max, since that's the name of the hotel bellboy, and to tell you the truth, he's very nice.

The most shocking thing is that he's not even trying to win me over, he just wanted to have someone to talk to. I haven't talked to anyone in six years, so I thought it would be good to hear him, because he only talked about his boyfriend abroad.

- He left long ago?

- No, it was very recent.

- It must be very hard for you, will he be back soon?

- He went to study, I hope he returns triumphant.

- So, do you work as a bellhop...?

- To be able to pay for my studies... Yes, exactly.

- Would a hug make you feel better?

- I would love to, thank you...

It was when I got up to give him that hug, it made me tender to know that he did not hinder the way of overcoming his boyfriend. We spend a very long time holding each other like this, until Max takes me near the dance floor and starts to move as if we were in love, but he did it for us to have fun.

- We're in the perfect position to dance.

- You didn't want to buy me a drink, but you do want to dance with me.

- You are a minor; If I buy you a drink, I'll go to prison.

We were playing around with it, and suddenly my Max shows up to deliver a heavy blow to my friend's face. I didn't even know what had happened, it all happened so fast, but seeing him on the floor, I couldn't help but get angry again, we weren't doing anything wrong, so I pushed my Max.

- May I know what's wrong with you? Why do you hit him?

- Are you defending him and not me?... Is it because he did touch you?

-And he wasn't afraid because I'm a minor, look...-his eyes filled with tears.

-This is the only reason why he didn't want to touch you; my true fear of saying what I feel...

- What are you talking about? Are you making excuses?

-No... I spent six years without you...-he begins to cry. - He cried day and night; begging my mother to help me find you, because he was desperate.

-Max! - I said with guilty tears.

-You can't imagine the joy I felt when I found your mother, because I knew that she was close to you and that it was a matter of hours before you would come back to me.

- Did you find my mom before?

-When they called me for her to go get you, he was so damn excited and happy...Until we were at my house and you said you hated me.

- But I...

- If I still haven't said what I feel, if I don't dare to touch you, it's because I'm afraid that you still feel that I abandoned you... And that you want to leave later; that would break my heart.

- I could not...

- Okay Nat, leave things like that... Me, I need to think; but don't worry, you'll have the room until Sunday night, remember to come home on Monday.

As much as I called him, he wouldn't let me speak, he practically ran away and although I went after him, he got into a taxi, I couldn't stop him. I went back to the bar because I wanted to know if my friend Max was okay and he left there, got in his car and left me too; The worst thing is that I don't know where my Max went.

Narrates Max:

I told him, at last I spoke directly to him about my fear; if I don't make love to him and he leaves, it would hurt, but in time I would learn to live with it. However, if I make love to him, if I feel him mine for one night, if I can make his body tremble and he leaves me, it would be like dying in life.

I get in the first taxi that passes, ignoring his small pleas to listen and ask the driver to take me to a place where I can think; he took me to a small lagoon about two hours away, which seemed to be illuminated by the moon and looked beautiful.

I sit on the shore, hugging my knees, and I lose sight of that beautiful place, because of the tears that wouldn't stop coming out. I love Nat with all my being, and my effort not to lose him is what really took him away from me, I'm so hurt, I just want to cry until dawn, but...

- Hey, you should have given him a chance to talk...

-He already has you, why does he want to talk to me?

-Because he doesn't love me, he loves you... That boy, no matter how angry he was with you, was dedicated to talking about you since we entered the bar.

- Why did you take him to a bar? There are so many beautiful places and little cafes; but you took him there... he's just a kid!

- I think you two, a pair of fools... You need to sit on a sofa, and talk about everything.

- Now do you want to be my heart doctor?

- Yeah well, you still owe me a good tip... And some ice for my face; but Tul and I, we never fell asleep fighting.

- Tulle? Is your boyfriend? His eyes held back tears.

Then he unburdened himself to me, telling me that his boyfriend went abroad to study and returned triumphantly to his side. But what he always remembers is that if they fought during the day, he always told her: "If we fall asleep fighting, we'll be fighting forever."

- You miss him a lot, don't you?

- Like a damn... Nat reminds me a lot of him; because he just wants you to tell him how you feel and show him. -I lean on his shoulder and cry even more...

-I'm really afraid of losing him... What if he leaves me afterwards?!

-And if he leaves you because you never tell him?

- I'm afraid of losing him forever.

- But, it's you who's keeping me away... - Nat's here!

- Well, it's time for me to go.

We both looked at each other for a long time, while that man left, and both of us had our faces dirty with tears. I knelt on the floor and that's when he threw himself on me to hug me with all his strength; so i reciprocated.

-Max! My Max!... Don't do this to me again!

-My Nat, my boy, I won't do it anymore...he It broke my heart when I left you at the bar.

- You should have told me the truth... Things wouldn't have gone that far.

- I'm still afraid that you'll go...

- No love, I will not go! I need you to be happy Max... - After a long pause, I just said:

I love you Nat...