BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2013

Chapter 15- 100 Day Special Part 1

September 20th, 2013:

We had all gathered in one of the recording studios to film a 100 days of Bangtan radio/recorded special. Staff had put a table with chairs and the couch around it. The managers told us they would not be giving us specific clothing for this and we could wear what we wanted. Naturally, this mostly only extended to the boys. I came to the studio in leggings and a trendy hoodie, but as soon as the staff saw me they rushed to the company wardrobe room and came back with a white, casual t-shirt with red lettering on it which they then twisted a knob in the front once I had changed. Not only was it overall less comfortable with this type of clothing, but I had been working out a lot in the gym with Jimin and was starting to get abs that showed. The stylist that helped make the bun in the front gasped and said how impressed she was, but I knew the managers would be less impressed.

I was standing to the side, a hairstylist perfecting my loose hair when Yoona walked over to me. I noticed how tired she looked.

"You ok? You look really tired?" I question as soon as she was in earshot.

"Wow, well good afternoon to you too..." she replies sarcastically.

I chuckle a bit, "are you ok though?" I keep questioning.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. Just some long hours and family stuff, nothing you have to worry yourself with," she answers nonchalantly.

"Are your family ok?" I reply concerned.

"They'll be fine, it's just a stressful time for my brother. He's in his final year of high school and he's finding it hard to cope. Everything will sort itself out though, it always does," she finally gives me a real answer.

"If there's anything I can do, let me know," I say. I couldn't fully understand what she was going through, but if I could help alleviate her, or her brother's, stress in any way, I would do it.

"No no, don't worry about it. You can just not talk back to anyone and follow the flow, that would be really helpful," she says cracking a small smile, knowing that was something I rarely did.

"Hahaha, ok, I'll try. I have been getting better at it, you have to admit," I say smiling back.

I had been working on not talking back, not rolling my eyes at things I disagreed with, following through with directions without questioning, and thinking before speaking. This resulted in the managers being very pleased. On top of that, since I went to the gym so much and ate almost nothing, at my weigh-in yesterday, I was 4 pounds below my necessary weight. Safe to say the company was loving this new me. However, the boys weren't too sure. I'm sure they noticed that all this resulted in me barely talking and losing interest and focus on things quite quickly.

"And I'm not too sure how the managers will like that," adds Yoona pointing to my abs.

"Yeah, I know..." I reply a little dejected, "I try to not work out too hard on my core, but I don't know... It gives me something to do that's not bad... and no one noticed it for so long".

"I mean don't get me wrong. I think it's amazing, I could never get abs, especially at your age. But the managers won't like it since it's not "feminine". Personally, I don't like it because it means you've been going to the gym way too much, like Jimin, and I know you barely eat anything... it will get you back in hospital soon," she says, this time her turn to be worried.