December 11th, 2013:
I was standing in front of all the boys in the changing room, now feeling a little awkward with all of their eyes on me.
"Um... well," I start, taking a deep breath, "I guess I should apologise," I finally let out.
Jimin nods his head and smiles victoriously.
"You know you aren't making it very easy," I say to Jimin miffed.
Namjoon glared at him, and he sits up politely and let his smug smile disappear.
"So... I want to apologise for first, the little outburst I just did. I was at the end of my line and you guys were being really annoying in my defense," I say.
"Y/N..." Yoona, who was standing in the doorway, says disapprovingly.
"Ok, ok. Sorry, it was wrong of me to do, I should have calmly talked through it with you all," I correct myself, "I also want to apologise to you Jimin for losing it in the elevator. I shouldn't have and I understand that you were just looking out for me," I continue with my apology. Jimin goes to open his mouth, probably to accept my apology, but I keep speaking before he can say anything.
"But-" I try to keep speaking, but I'm interrupted by Beomsoo.
"It's not really an apology if there's a 'but', Y/N," he states.
"And you're not supposed to be speaking to me," I retort, shooting daggers at him, upset he of all people was interrupting me.
He looked upset I had spoken to him like that, but he knew I was right by the look Sejin was giving him and kept his mouth shut.
"But, I also think you guys have to understand things from my point of view. While you are right that speaking to people does help me, I do sometimes need time to process things and figure stuff out on my own. It is very annoying to constantly be pestered about how I am feeling, especially when I'm trying to get better, but you guys never believe me when I answer I'm fine. And I might not be, but I think we are at a point in our relationships where you need to start respecting my answers and me. You guys might know me very well, but there is no one that knows me more than I do. I'm not pushing you guys away because I don't trust you. I'm doing it because I'm trying to figure it out for myself and when I feel like I'm ready, I'll speak to you guys, I promise. And honestly, the more you guys asked me, the more I got annoyed because it got to a point I didn't even know if I was ok or not because you never gave me the time to register things, and honestly it became that I thought I shouldn't be ok since you were always upset when I said I was fine, so... yeah... just give me a bit of space," I explain, swaying back and forth unsure of how they were going to react.
"I guess I should apologise too," Jimin finally says something, "I should have asked you what you needed instead of just assuming I knew what you needed".
He gets up and we hug each other tightly.
"I'm sorry," he whispers.
"I'm sorry too," I whisper back, letting go of the hug.
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BTS Eighth Member | The Life: Year 2013
FanfictionThis is year 2013 of my slow-burn, detailed story of Y/N as the eighth member of BTS. The story is as realistic as possible which means it sticks to dates as well as social and idol "norms". This is not snapshots or short imagines, it does have a t...
