Lost boy | Luke Hemmings

Chapter 30

Chiarra's P.O.V

Luke continues to console me as I talk more about Brandon. I get out all my feelings and emotions that I have been holding in and end up crying. They've been needing to come out for too long so it's good that they are.

"He hurt me so bad." I sob and Luke runs his hand up and down my back. I dig my face into the front of his perfect singlet and sob even louder.

He tells me how beautiful I am, whispering kind things in my ear. He tells me he'll never let Brandon hurt me again and I believe him. I know now that Luke will look out for me because he knows what I've been through. Luke's always looked out for me but I can't imagine what he'll do if he sees Brandon. Will he hurt him? Will Brandon hurt him?

Luke continues to rub his hand up and down my back and my crying quietens. I move my head from his warm chest and look up at him. He still grips me around the waist with his arms and I feel incredibly safe.

"Sorry." I whisper. His shirt is damp from all of my tears.

"It's okay. I understand, Chiarra. Don't feel like you can't cry." Luke says softly and I can't the ignore the images of Brandon hurting me that flash in my head. I cringe but they don't go away. Brandon hitting me. Winking at me. Belting me.

I shake uncontrollably and Luke sees my violent trembling. I start to sob again and Luke pulls me close. I will never forget what Brandon did and I'm sure it will forever affect me like this. It's not fair, I don't deserve this. I never did anything to Brandon.

I sob louder and louder and Luke envelops me in his warm arms. It helps slightly but I still shake and cry. I feel better I've finally told someone though because I know I need someone for support. Luke is the best person I know.

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After Luke and I have sat there for a while, my eyes all puffy and red but the tears gone, I decide to make a bold move. I know what I have to say but I don't want to ask it. It will ruin this moment, even though it's already been ruined from my thoughts of Brandon, but I know I have to do it. My stupid curiosity is taking over again and I think I deserve to know which country my boyfriend is traveling to on tour.

"Luke, I don't even want to bring this topic up but... where is your tour going to be?"
He takes a deep breath and sighs. He runs his hand up through his hair and I grip his other hand. I hate talking about this as much as he does but I need to know this answer.

"England." He says quickly and I immediately want to change the subject. There's an awkward silence until Luke stands up and grabs the guitar lying close to the fire. He walks back over to where we're sitting and scoots close to me. While he starts to tune the guitar, I look at my cute boyfriend. I'm so lucky to have him. His cute black skinny jeans, perfect quiff, electric blue eyes and he's all mine. I'm so lucky. He supports me and is there for me if I need him.

Luke looks up and makes eye contact with me and I blush, knowing he felt me staring at him. I shrug and he laughs and continues to play some chords.

"Chiarra... When I first heard about you and Brandon, I decided to write a song for you. To be honest, I've liked you for a long time. I used to see you and I always wanted to be with you. Brandon was with you then and I saw how he treated you. In the end, I made a song about it. It's called 'Just Saying'."

"You got a boyfriend, and he's a total loser,
All your friends tell you that he's got no future,
But they like me,
Just saying,

He barely takes you out, if he does he's late,
And when the check comes he always makes you pay,
I'd never do that,
Just saying,

You should leave him,
'Cause it really makes me sick,
Just saying, just saying,
You don't need him,
I'll help you get over it,
Just saying, just saying,

When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
'Cause I'm better than him,
Just saying,
When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
Just saying,

Got a big house, he says he lives alone,
But when I drove by I could see his mum was home,
I got my own place (he totally lies to you),
Just saying,

He says he loves you, but it's all an act,
He's seeing someone else right behind your back,
You know I'd never do that (he would never do that),
Just saying,

You should leave him,
'Cause it really makes me sick,
Just saying, just saying,
You don't need him,
I'll help you get over it,
Just saying, just saying,

When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
'Cause I'm better than him,
Just saying,
When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
Just saying, just saying,'

Luke strums through the guitar solo and furrows his eyebrows, deep in concentration. Then he looks up at me while he plays and I see tears glistening in his eyes. I know why he's crying, because he's upset for me. He made this song about me being with Brandon because he wishes I was never with him. I wish I was never with him.

'You should leave him,
'Cause it really makes me sick,
Just saying, just saying,
You don't need him,
I'll help you get over it,
Just saying, just saying,

When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
'Cause I'm better than him,
Just saying,
When you change your mind I'll be waiting,
Just saying, just saying,

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Note from MrsHemmings579:
Hey! Sorry about the lyrics in the chap. but they needed to be in there! Anyway, it's my birthday on Tuesday! WHOOP WHOOP! I was going to do another update then as a special treat but I'm not sure. Please comment here if you want another chapter out on Tuesday.

If I get more than a certain amount of comments and votes, I'll update. Thanks guys! Luv ya ♡♥♡