The Great Pretenders

Chapter 20

Lucy's POV

Matt's lips on mine. Was there anything better? My heart was beating uncontrollably. The intensity filled my body, causing the blood in my veins to rush to my head. And in that moment my body wasn't connected to my mind. It felt like it was taking control. Like my mind just turned off and my body took the driver's seat. I never realized how... hungry my body was.

I met Matt with the passionate kiss and kissed him harder.

I felt dizzy when he pulled away. Almost as if I was floating. I wanted him to kiss me again. Did he feel that way too? Is that why he kissed me? Because he couldn't stand to see me with Mark? Could I dare to hope?

I turned slightly to see Mark's expression but instead made eye contact with Val. She was looking at us with a curious expression and Mark looked like he was about to explode.

And that was when it clicked. Matt wasn't actually kissing me. He was kissing Mark's ex and he was showing Val what she missing out on.

Oh my God. I'm so stupid. I thought...I don't even know what I thought...

How could I think Matt was kissing me because he liked me? He was kissing me because Valary was watching. It was all part of this fucking stupid plan that I had gotten myself into. I should have just said no. I'd probably be miserable over Mark still but at least I wasn't torturing myself by seeing how great a guy Matt was but I couldn't have him either. I should have known it was too good to be true. He hadn't discovered feelings for me. He wanted to make Val jealous. It was just part of the dumb plan. He didn't mean it. God Lucy, you're so stupid.

"I need to get out of here." I said abruptly pulling away from him as I running to find Zoey.

"Wait, Lucy, wait." He called behind me. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I lied "I'm fine. I just need some air."

Without another word, I turned and stormed out. I heard Zoey calling after me and I heard Matt but I didn't stop. I just kept moving. I didn't want anyone to see the tears that were threatening to stream from my eyes.

"Lucy!" I heard Matt yell even as I made it past Reilly's car. Damn I left my bags in there and it's locked.

"Just go away Sanders," I said loudly as I moved away from the car and down the block.

"Stop." He commanded, grabbing my arm "Seriously, what's wrong?"

"I can't believe you just did that." I yelled at him

He looked guilty "I know, I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to disturb you two while you were talking. I just..."

"You just what?" I demanded

"I just thought...I didn't like the way he was....I mean...well I figured it would be a good thing to make him jealous." He replied

Which pissed me off even more...he wasn't apologizing for not having feelings for me. And why should he? He didn't even know how I felt about him. Instead, he was apologizing for ruining what he thought was a magical moment between me and Mark. Ugh.

"You are impossible." I said exasperated

"What did I do?" he asked confused

I was in no mood to clear up his confusion "Next time you want to kiss me to make your ex-girlfriend jealous, I'd appreciate a little warning. I'm not yours to grope every time you feel like it."

"Hey," he said softly "That is not what I was trying to do. I was trying to help you."

"Help me?" I said incredulously "You were trying to help me? Well that's just great. Thanks. I really needed your help. Wait come to think of it, the last thing I needed was your help! I need you to..."