The Great Pretenders

Chapter 35

Matt's POV

I used to think about Lucy all the time. I couldn't help it. I was in love with her. I don't ever doubt that. I mean I know it was short time that we were together, or not really together, but it was real. As I moved on and got busy with getting famous, I thought about her less and less. She does still pop into my head every time I sing "Unholy Confessions." I guess that was only normal. I mean I did write that one about her. Jimmy was the only one who knew that though since he cowrote with me.

She left Huntington Beach shortly after the end of our relationship without so much as a goodbye. Not that I expected one but you know, it would have been nice to know that she thought enough about me to let me know she was leaving. Don't you think?

But I guess that's all in the past now. She didn't love me so it was time for me to move on.

Val and I eventually got back together. She came to my house and found me was sulking near the pool. She came to tell me how sorry she had been for dumping me, for hurting me. I forgave her of course and to complicate things, I kissed her after she had said it mostly because Lucy's rejection had stung like hell and Val was a soothing balm on my heart. It was nice to be wanted again after being rejected. Eventually we got married after the band took off. We had been together for so long it just seemed to be the next natural step. I did...do...love Val, but I'm cautious not to let myself fall too hard. I guess I learned that with Lucy.

Lucy...I wonder what she's up to these days. It's like she disappeared from the face of the Earth. Did she play soccer in college? What did she study? Where did she live? Was she get married? Did she have any kids? Did she ever catch one of our shows? Wouldn't that be a trip if she did? I guess I could Google her but I guess I'm afraid.

So I guess I'll just sit here every now and then and wonder what she's doing now...