The Great Pretenders

Chapter 3

Matt's POV

I couldn't get Val's words out of my mind.

"Don't think you're ready for a serious relationship. You think more about yourself and your friends than you do me. You just care about your music.You never want to just talk, you never get jealous with every guy that looks at me, you never hold my hand in public, you'll never give me a cute nickname, you aren't boy next door, you'll never be Prince charming."

All the things Val wanted me to be, but I couldn't. Yeah, we had an on again, off again relationship. But it was a relationship. Our relationship.

Yes, I'm not a talker. But I'll blow her ears off with my worthless chatter if she wanted. Yeah, I don't mind when she says she hanging out with the guys or if a guy is checking her out. She's hot and I trust her. Well did.

No! It's not her fault. Harrison, yes Harrison, he was the one who manipulated her. I wonder if he was all those things that she wanted in me.

Does he hold her hand? I never hold hands, I felt like a damn 2 yr old when I did corny shit like that. And I knew the guys wouldn't let me hear the end of it, if I did. Now look where it got me.

What did she want me to call her? Snuggles, smoochy or something stupid like Googly Bear. I would call her fucking Heidi Klum if she wanted. Anything.

'Boy next door', 'Prince charming' I would be 'Tom Cruise' if she wanted. God, I'll jump on every couch I see, but now I don't have her to prove it.

If only she could see me be all those things and more. If only she could see me change and fall head over heels like I've done for her. But she can't see it.

Crap, I didn't want to go to this party. I knew she was going to be there. We were supposed to go to that together. I wonder if it's too late to get a date? Or maybe if I go by myself, she'll realize that I can't live without her and come back to me.

Who are you kidding Sanders? Val isn't going to take you back because you're pathetic. The only way she will take you back is if you change, like she wanted. But, how? How do I show her that I can be a serious boyfriend if she's with someone else? How can I show her I can be who she wants me to be if she won't take me back?

How about if you get another girlfriend?

What? Me? Who?

Yes! That's it. I'll show her I can change and I'll show her what she is missing out on, while with that idiot. Yes!

Shit, but with who?

I jumped out of my bed and started to get ready for the party. I was mentally running through the immediate list of girls I knew I'd see.

Okay first eliminate all of Val's friends and of course Michelle. No friend or sister will date an ex of another friend until six months have passed and only with written permission from the other said friend. Or some stupid girl rule like that.

I began to cross them off my mental list.

Kristen Berry. Jason and Matt's older sister. Ultra hot but a real nag. Uh hell no...

Katie and Kelly Sullivan. Jimmy's little sisters...like actual little sisters to me. A little incestuous feeling. Yuck.

Zoey Baker. Zacky's little sister. Cute but off limits. Damn I need to hang out with more girls that aren't related to my friends.

Lana Evans. Too stuck up.

Adela Christianson. Too tall...

Abi Lawrence. Nobody liked her though no one would tell her to her face.