Can you fix me? (One Direction Self Harm Story)

Chapter 19

Samantha's POV:

Yayyyy! It's Christmas Eve! I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas. Time flew by this year. Christmas is my favorite time of the year. The Christmas decorations, the snow, hot chocolate, baking cookies, presents, and most importantly family. It's just a beautiful time. When my parents were still together we'd always have this tradition where we would order pizza on Christmas Eve and then change into Christmas pajamas and watch the classic Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer while drinking hot chocolate. I'm going to continue with that tradition just with new people....but before I could have any fun I had to go workout with Ashley first. We've been working extremely hard for the past 9 days. We've been working out for at least 2 hours every day and trying to eat next to nothing. I have to be at least 100 pounds tonight. I put on sweatpants and a hoodie so Zayn wouldn't get suspicious that I was going to workout. "Hey, I'm going to go to the store and get stuff we need for tonight." I said to Zayn. "What stuff?" he asks. "Well, we're going to need soda with the pizza and I'll just pick up the pizza on the way home." I lie. It was only partially a lie....I was going to do all of that stuff just after I finish working out. "Okay, see you in a few." he says. I give him a kiss and then walk out to my car and head to the gym to meet Ashley.

"97..98...99....100!" I counted. Woo. I just finished 100 crunches. "Ready to do squats and then run 3 miles?" Ashley asks me. "Let's do this!" I said and we gave each other a high five. We've been at this for about an hour and I was exhausted but I can't quit now. We stood beside each other and faced the long mirror wall. If we looked in the mirror it made us work harder because we could see all the fat on our bodies. "100 squats, right?" I ask. She nods her head and we begin. After about 50 repetitions I noticed some cute guys staring at us. Hey, just because I was in a relationship doesn't mean I can't look....I can look but not touch. "Hey, Ash....look at those two cuties staring at us." I said. She looked over and stared right at them. Isn't she subtle? "Could you make it anymore obvious?" I ask while giggling. She giggled too. We finished out last set of squats and stood up. "Man, you can really feel the burn now." Ashley said. I laughed in agreement. I was wiping my face with a towel when I saw the two guys walking towards us. "Hey, I'm Brian and this is Jake. We noticed you two working out pretty hard.." Brian said. He was smiling right at me and I noticed Jake looking at Ashley. "Um, hey...yeah...trying to get that workout in before that big Christmas dinner tomorrow." I said. I looked over at Ashley and Jake as they were hitting it off. Awe, young love. Maybe she can finally get a boyfriend. "Yeah, I understand. I was wondering if we could go get coffee or something sometime?" he asks. Was he trying to ask me out? "Um, I actually have a boyfriend..." I said. His face kind of drooped a little. "But I'd love to go as friends! We can be friends, right?" I ask. He smiled again. "Absolutely! Here's my number...text me anytime you're free." he says while handing me a piece of paper with his number on it. "I will. But in the mean time Ashley and I need to finish our run. So, I'll see you later?" I questioned. "Of course. Jake and I should get going anyway. See ya!" he said and then he left the gym with Jake. "I got his number! We're going out on Friday." Ashley said excitedly. "Yay! I'm so happy for you. I also got Brian's number." I told her. "Don't you have a boyfriend?" she questioned while raising her eyebrow at me. "Hey! Don't look at me like that. Besides Brian and I are just friends....and if something were to happen with me and Zayn then maybe Brian and I could be something more." I said. She playfully rolled her eyes and then we got on the treadmills to do our 3 miles.

"Are you ready?" I asked Ashley while squeezing her hand. We're about to weigh in to see how much our hard work has paid off. "As ready as I''ll ever be." she sighed. She stepped onto the scale and waited for the number to come up. It flashed 99.0. "9 pounds? Way to go Ash!" I said while giving her a huge hug. "Wow. That's one pound less than our goal weight." she said in disbelief. "Your turn." she reminded me. Oh, great....what if I'm still in the 100's? I'll look like a freaking whale compared to Ashley. I reluctantly stepped onto the scale and waited. 97.5. "YES!" I screamed. I gave Ashley a huge hug. "Way to go! We're both in the 90's. We made it past our goal weight." Ashley said excitedly. I'm finally back where I need to be. "Hey, I have to go get pizza and soda for tonight. Wanna ride along? I'll take you home." I asked. "Sure. Let's go." she said. I changed back into my hoodie and sweatpants. I've been wearing baggy clothes so they don't notice how skinny I've gotten. Ashley and I picked up the pizza and soda. I invited her to come over but she had plans with her family. I dropped her off at home and headed to my own house. I decided to text Brian real quick just so he'd have my number. I programmed his number into my phone and sent him a text "Hey, it's Samantha from the gym. This is my number." I turned my phone off and jammed out to Pierce The Veil the whole way home.