My Life With My True Feelings

I'm Fine

(okay so this assignment I had to use a song and use its lyrics beginning to end soooooo yeeee) (It's probably very very cringey)
Na kkeuteobsneum kkum sogieodo haneobsi gugyeojigo naigaenun jjiyeojigo (Even if I'm inside an endless dream, even if I get crushed endlessly, Even if my wings getting ripped.)
I will be picked.
Picked up from the angels and demons.
So many reasons for the changes of the seasons. 

The past keeps on gripping onto me.
But soon I'll be free.
Cuz I'm feeling just fine, fine, fine ijen neoui soneul noheulge (I'll let go of your hand now)
I will finally allow.
Allow myself to spread my wings.
All of my demons disappear.
Cuz I know I'm all mine, mine, mine, Cuz I'm just fine.

Deo isangeun seulpeuji anhelluas. (I don't want to be sad anymore.)
I will end the war.
Between my light, the angel in my soul.
Defending me from the darkness, the demon trying to take over.
The demon trying to control.
Control my thoughts, my beliefs, and even my actions. 

Using the mirror you will see reflections.
The demon's red bloody eyes reflected from my dark, chocolate brown eyes.
Using my smile to be an attraction.
Breaking me into fractions.
Blinding me from reality.
Always repeating the video tapes.
"Never good enough.
You should give up.
You're useless and a disappointment.
You're just a broken and emotionless doll, my puppet.
Let. Me. In."
Drowning me.
My mind starts to get toxic.. making myself suicidality.
I was trapped in this dark room.
Always tired of fighting it,
but slowly consuming me.
Turning me hostile.
The room forming into hallways.
Every single time I tried to find the exit.
The hallways getting farther and farther away from me.
I started to see other prisoners.
After all, it's just the smiling and cheerful girl of whom I miss being.
The fearless and hopeful girl which I once been.
But now you hear me screaming, fighting, crying, and begging.
I wish I could take off the stitches from my mouth, please allow me to use my voice.
Oh, God, can't you save me!
The angels started to send messengers.

Those messengers were my friends and family.
The storm started to clear up.
I was in luck.
"I'm fine nae haneuluen malga (My sky is clear.)"
I told myself.
Modeun apeumdeuliyeo (all the pain) say goodbye.
My happiness was high.
My eye started to have their eyeshines once again.
My dark chocolate brown eyes stayed always cheerful.
I started to hear lullabies.
My halo and angel wings came back to me.
I was finally free.
But happiness can't always stay.
"Life is harsh. You will cry and get hurt."
And that's what kept happening.
The demon trying to come back.
"Hogsi neogeodo boilkka (I wonder would you be able to see?)"
"Neogedo deullikka (Would you be able to hear?)"
She kept repeating.
Instead of putting my head down letting it get the strings and control me.
As its puppet.
I stand up bright.
My light is brighter than ever before.
I'm not afraid anymore.
I had restored my strength, my hope, my butterflies, my smile, and my true-self.
She threw her darkness, her nightmares, her thunderstorms towards me.
She tried to throw the sea.
"I'm feeling just fine, fine (I will try again even if I have to several times) myeochbeonildo doenoebogesseo)."
"Tto dasi sseuleojindaedo nan gwaenchanha (Even if I fall again, I'm okay)"
I keep saying and slowly pushing her away.
I humihan mealiga (This faint echo)
Of my lightning arrows crossing through her flesh, cutting deeply, and slowly making her disappear.
As I repeat,
I'm fine, I'm fine.