I'm sorry if I made you mad,
I'm sorry for always being annoying to you,
I'm sorry if I'm being clingy,
I'm sorry if u regret meeting me,
I'm sorry for always lying to you,
Lying that I'm okay...but I can't help it,
I'm sorry for always wanting to hug you,
I wish I could hug you right now,
You make me happier,
I wish you could let me see your smile again,
But all I do is be scared..,
And push others away,
I'm scared you will never talk to me the same again,
I'm scared that you will leave me,
Yet...I'm here..not even looking at you,
Trying to protect my butterflies from getting hurt,
I want to be close to you,
But the demons keep on whispering to me,
Telling me that you will use me,
You will take advantage of me,
You never will love me,
You pity me,
That you will leave,
That I'm not good enough...that you will make me feel miserable,
That you only wanted to use me to get close to my friends,
I don't know what's reality,
Cuz I only hide myself in my fantasies,
So please....tell me what am I to you?
Am I really your best friend?
Or am I just somebody you felt needed somebody because of how limited she is to others?
Yet here I am making this dumb poem...instead of asking you.
But I'm truly sorry.
You deserve someone better.
Maybe I should wait till you don't need me and throw me away.
Evey single time I think about you leaving me... it breaks me.
Like a broken mirror my fragments keep on getting smaller.
Impossible for anybody to fix me.
You and nobody can fix something that's already broken.
I still want you here.
I wish I could say, "Please...stay here with me...just for a bit longer. Even if its just a few minutes...Please stay here."
Even a simple glimpse of you makes me happy.
Even if you find another person to replace me....I would smile like nothing is wrong.
I will still long for you...but I will stitch my mouth and support you.
...Even if I'm afraid of being alone...I will still be there for you.
Yes...I wish I could stop being so attached to you and everybody who I care about...
BUT I CAN'T!
NO MATTER WHAT I DO! I CARE FOR THEM! I WISH I COULD STOP...but I can't..I'm still a fool...I know that people come and go. Like the seasons.
But why...why do I always get hurt?
What did I do to have so much fear of fucking being alone...?
I'm sorry...I will be a better person for you.
For my sisters.
My parents.
And my friends.
I,
Am,
Sorry,
Best Friend,
Friend who,
I love so much.
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My Life With My True Feelings
PoetryIt's a poem that I did for fun. I hope yall will like it! (n u n) And I mostly express my feelings and with my sorrows. And I write about my depression at times and if I feel happy for once I will write a poem about it. (Btw this is the same just in...
