I am Scarlet, and yeah my name means a sinful woman. But despite having that name, I grew up fearing the almighty creator.
Magmula noong bata pa ako hanggang sa nagkaisip ay malaki ang takot at paniniwala ko sa may likha. Subalit, dumating rin ako sa puntong sinubok ang aking katatagan at paniniwala.
I met a man named Jax. Mabait sya, masipag, magaling makisama, masaya kausap at oo gwapo sya, given na yun. Hindi ko alam kung kailan nagsimula, kung habang tinititigan ko ba sya habang nakikinig sa pagsasalita nya kaya ako nagkagusto ay hindi ko rin alam. I knew in my heart that something grow in me. It might be a simple crush but I know how that simple admiration can turn into a strong feeling, something that I would like to have so bad.
But I felt my heart sank when he said he was in a relationship and was living together. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig na hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Bigla akong nanlamig, pakiramdam ko may mali akong nagawa. Alam kong simpleng paghanga lang iyong nararamdaman ko, pero alam ko ring maaari iyong lumalim hanggang sa mahulog ako sa kinailaliman hanggang sa hindi ko na magawang makaahon pa.
Alam kong kabobòhan pero gusto kong tanungin kung mali nga ba ang magka crush sa isang taong may nagmamay-ari na. Though at some point, I can say that it was not good either. I feel like I cheated on the woman whom he loved, kahit na lihim ang pagtingin ko kay Jax. Kahit na wala naman akong balak na ipaalam kay Jax ang nararamdaman ko. Pakiramdam ko may mali akong ginawa.
It's not that I tolerate cheating. It's not that I will cross that line, but the fact that my feelings were still fresh I might do something I will regret.
"Ate, ang pangit pakinggan. Kung magkakagusto ka man. Doon nalang sa walang sabit" Jassie commented.
I smiled at that. Knowing that she wont tolerate me if ever I will do something stupid and ruin someone else's lives.
"Yeah. I guess" nakangiting saad ko habang tinatapos ang sinusulat kong akda para sa araw na ito.
"Anong tile mo sa story?" she asked.
I smiled weakly at her and replied.
"Untitled piece"
"Bakit?"
"Ewan. Maybe because it reminds me of the untitled story of my one-sided love story" I shrugged at saka isinara ang notebook kung saan ko isinulat ang kwentong walang naging nagsimula, at mas lalong walang wakas.
